At a Total Loss

Jenny: What Joey Taught Me

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Tue, 14 Apr 2026 16:56:50 +0000

In this deeply moving episode, I sit down with Jenny Kim as she shares the unimaginable story of losing her sweet son, Joey, at just six months old in a tragic accident in 2022. Jenny opens up about the devastating pain of child loss, the shock and trauma that followed, and the questions that can haunt a grieving parent.

As a medical professional, Jenny also speaks candidly about the added layer of heartbreak that came with being someone who was exceptionally careful, informed, and vigilant—yet still experiencing the unthinkable. We talk about the guilt, the “what ifs,” and the brutal reality that tragedy can happen even when everything is done “right.”

She also shares how she and her husband navigated grief both individually and together, the ways loss impacted their marriage and day-to-day life, and what it has looked like to continue living while carrying Joey with them. Most beautifully, Jenny talks about the ways she is honoring his life and carrying forward his legacy with love, purpose, and intention.

This is an honest conversation about love, trauma, survival, and what it means to keep a child’s memory alive.

Find Jenny and all her amazing work on Instagram at @whatjoeytaughtme

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NOTE: I am not a doctor or a therapist. This podcast is not in place of therapy. The views of my guests are not always reflective of my own. I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. These are my experiences, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone. Always do your own research and make informed decisions!

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Losing Two Sweet Babies: What Lindsey Wants Other Moms to Know

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Wed, 1 Apr 2026 12:14:16 +0000

In this episode, I sit down with Lindsey, who has experienced the heartbreaking loss of two of her sweet babies.

We talk about the unfortunate care she received in the hospital, the regrets she has carried, and how those experiences have shaped her mission to help other mamas in need.

We also talk about the self-care journey of surviving while waiting for the time to try again for another living baby.

She is such a light, and I truly hope her words resonate with anyone walking this road. 🤍

Find her on Instagram: @giftsfromgiannella

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Accepting the Gifts From Our Babies

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Tue, 24 Mar 2026 16:19:47 +0000

In this solo episode, I’m talking about something that can feel complicated in grief… the gifts our babies leave us with.

And no—I don’t mean anything that takes away from the pain or tries to “silver line” their loss. I mean the real, undeniable ways they’ve changed us.

For a long time, I only knew Brody through pain. Through devastation. Through everything that was taken from me. But at some point, I realized… I didn’t want that to be the only way I carried him. So I started to see what else was there.

How deeply present I’ve become with the people I love.

How much more authentically I show up in my life.

How my perspective—shaped through grief—has created a version of me I’m actually proud of.

These are the gifts. And it’s okay to acknowledge them. It’s okay to lean into them.

It doesn’t mean you’re “moving on.” It means you’re moving with.

This is how we become the next version of ourselves—the one our babies made us.

And the reason we can be both heartbroken… and incredibly proud of them at the same time.

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Marcela: Stillbirth, Grief, PAL & Supporting Other Loss Moms

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Mon, 9 Mar 2026 22:33:40 +0000

In this episode, I sit down with Marcela, a loss mom from South Florida whose first and only child, Alesandra, was stillborn two years ago. Since that devastating loss, Marcela has been on a journey to find answers, rebuild trust in her medical care, and navigate life after unimaginable grief.

Marcela shares how advocating for herself led her to a new medical team and eventually to the birth of her second daughter, sweet Natalia.

Now an active member of the Star Legacy Foundation, Marcela is passionate about supporting other bereaved parents and helping raise awareness around stillbirth.

She opens up about what the past two years of grief have really looked like, the healing she has found through community and advocacy, and the complex emotions of once believing she would be “one and done,” but now living life as the mother of two beautiful daughters — one in heaven and one in her arms.

This conversation is honest, hopeful, and a reminder that love for our babies never stops growing.

Find her on Instagram at @marcelavargas_fitness

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Alissa: 8 Years Later

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Tue, 24 Feb 2026 16:35:36 +0000

In this episode, Alissa returns to the podcast to share what life looks like 8 years after her daughter Anna was stillborn. If you want her full story, go back and listen to Episode #52 — we recorded that one 2.5 years ago, and hearing the evolution between then and now is powerful.

We talk honestly about grief life then vs now, how pain shifts but never disappears, and what it looks like to rebuild identity, perspective, and purpose after loss. Alissa opens up about parenting after stillbirth, navigating layered grief after losing her sister the year before Anna, and the unexpected “gifts” our babies leave behind — even when the journey is brutally hard.

If you’re newly walking this path, this episode offers real perspective on how things can change over time… while still honoring the parts that never will. And if you’re wondering how to keep your baby present as the years move forward, her insight is deeply grounding.

Alissa has always been incredibly transparent, and I’m so grateful our paths crossed early in my own journey. 🤍

Find Alissa on Instagram @lissables

And her sweet creations @a.missing.stitch

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Loss Mom Questions Answered

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Mon, 16 Feb 2026 19:57:23 +0000

In this episode, I’m answering your questions — the real ones. The ones you sent me quietly on Instagram. The ones that sit heavy in your chest at 2am.

We’re talking about:

– Have I actually found joy again… without constantly thinking my baby should be here?

– How to handle not getting grace from the people around us

– What to do when you feel like your body failed you

– Navigating strained relationships after stillbirth

– Trying to conceive again (TTC) and the emotional rollercoaster that comes with it

– Regrets about hospital decisions and the “what ifs” that won’t let go

– Pregnancy after loss (PAL) and living in two realities at once

– The anger that comes with feeling like you have to “start over”

Nothing is off limits here. I share what this has looked like in my own life — the messy middle, the guilt, the growth, the perspective shifts that took years to land. I don’t offer perfect answers, because there aren’t any. But I do offer honesty.

If you’ve ever wondered whether joy is allowed… If you’ve wrestled with resentment toward your body… If your relationships changed and you don’t recognize them anymore… If you’re TTC again while terrified… This episode is for you.

You’re not dramatic.

You’re not broken.

You’re grieving.

And I’m right here with you. ❤️‍🩹

If you want to dive deeper, head to katherinelazar.com to book a 1:1 Virtual Support Call to unpack any of these topics.

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A Fantastic Mess

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Mon, 2 Feb 2026 21:46:15 +0000

In this episode, I talk about the most fantastic mess that is life after stillbirth. This is emotional whiplash at its finest...

Loss mamas are out here doing the damn thing every single day—showing up, parenting, working, laughing—and still grieving, spiraling, and holding a whole lot beneath the surface. Two things can be true at once, and they usually are.

I share a moment where I blurted out something dark but completely factual… and the person on the receiving end said absolutely nothing. We get into how grief conversations have evolved (or haven’t), why people don’t know what to do with us, and how wildly inappropriate things still get said to our faces—like, “I would have died if something happened to my baby.” Cool. Thanks. Super helpful.

This episode is about the messiness, the awkwardness, the growth, the rage, the humor, and the reality of living after stillbirth. It’s about surviving, adapting, and learning how to exist in a world that’s uncomfortable with our truth.

If you’re a loss mama trying to hold it together while falling apart, this one’s for you.

Welcome to the fantastic mess. 🖤

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Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

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The Misfits of Grief

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Mon, 26 Jan 2026 15:44:35 +0000

In this episode, I talk about the part of grief that doesn’t fit the mold—the way loss makes you different, and how few people truly understand the way we navigate the world afterward.

There’s an unexpected empowerment that comes from owning that difference. From letting go of how grief should look. From stopping the need to be understood. And from building a life after loss in the way you need to, not the way others expect.

If you’ve ever felt like a misfit in your grief, about how you're doing this and am looking for guidance on owning it, this one is for you.

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https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

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God, Attitude & Anxiety After Loss

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Mon, 12 Jan 2026 18:47:25 +0000

In this episode, I talk openly about God after the death of my son, Brody—what my faith looks like now, what it doesn’t, and how it has changed in ways I never expected. I share my honest thoughts, doubts, anger, comfort, and the quiet moments where belief feels complicated but still present.

I also dive into what it’s like to parent after loss—how grief shows up in anxiety, how it lives in my body and my thoughts, and the things that genuinely help me when the fear gets loud. This isn’t about having it all figured out; it’s about surviving, regulating, and finding ways to feel safe in a world that no longer feels predictable.

Finally, I talk about the way Brody’s death reshaped how I show up in the world. The attitude I try to carry. The energy I try to contribute. The way loss softened me, sharpened me, and changed how I treat others—and myself.

I also talk about a lot of other random stuff too LOL

This episode is for anyone navigating faith after loss, parenting with grief, or trying to live gently and intentionally after their world has been shattered.

You’re not alone here. 🤍

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Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

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"The Dig Out"

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Mon, 5 Jan 2026 21:59:45 +0000

Tis a new year my friends and honestly, it's the same shit. In this episode, I get super vulnerable you guys. I even go a little Tony Robbins on ya...

I will say I'm super proud of myself for what I did in 2025 when it came to my health and wellness. I went IN trying to get my physical health and mental health back on track. Like GLP-1s, I did Ketamine, back to working out consistently, bible study, being present with my babies, changing up career paths, getting grief coach and educator certified, finding that balance with motherhood and grief, and just trying to get ME back...

Well it was tough but I made it and I am proud but no one talks about that "Dig Out"...Where you have to consistently dig yourself out of a dark place all the time. It's honorable and shitty but we have to do it. I dive into this phenomena in hopes to hype you up and share that it's hard for me too.

This is real life, I'm always honest with y'all and I always will be.

Hope this helps mama <3

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https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

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Loss Mama Life: then vs now

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Mon, 15 Dec 2025 19:49:50 +0000

Carter's mama, Amy and I, first recorded 3.5 years ago, not long after we both lost our sons. At the time, we were still deep in survival mode—learning how to breathe, how to exist, how to live in a world that had permanently changed.

In this episode, we come back together to talk about life now.

We talk honestly about:

Parenting after loss
What grief looks like years later (spoiler: it doesn’t disappear)
Expanding our families while still carrying our first babies with us
The tension of joy and sorrow coexisting
How motherhood after loss reshapes who you are, how you parent, and how you move through the world

This isn’t a “look how far we’ve come” conversation. It’s just a real one. Two moms with 2 on earth and one in the sky.

Grief didn’t end. It evolved. Love didn’t shrink. It expanded. And our sons are still very much part of our everyday lives.

If you’re navigating parenting after loss, considering growing your family again, or wondering what life can look like years down the road—this conversation is for you.

Find Amy on Instagram:@amyycampisi

Her Charity Org Carters Classic Website

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https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

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Your Loss Mama Besties

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 27 Nov 2025 05:00:00 +0000

This episode is for every loss mama — whether you’re in the first impossible weeks or years down the road trying to make sense of this new life.
I brought on two other loss mamas Terra's mom, Andrea (@grievinglikeamother and Juniper's mom, Amanda (@orangeafmama) and we just… talked. No scripts, no fixing, no pretending.
Just honest perspective on baby loss, parenting after loss, living kids, holidays, triggers, healing, and all the messy in-between.

If you’ve ever wondered, “Is it just me?” — it’s not.
Sit with us. Cry, laugh, nod along. You’re in the presence of three loss mama besties who get it in a way the world honestly never will.

Find them on IG at @grievinglikeamother and @orangeafmama

If you're looking for your Loss Posse go to LOSSLINK.com to search for mamas just like you.

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Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Birthday Reflections & Real Talk

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Sat, 15 Nov 2025 18:01:47 +0000

It’s my birthday — the fourth one since losing Brody — and this episode is as raw and real as it gets. I’m unpacking what birthdays feel like after loss, how healing actually looks in year four, and what life is like right now: therapy, hospital stays with my living son, and the everyday chaos that somehow keeps me grounded.

Sprinkled with stories, a few F-bombs, and a whole lot of iced coffee, this is the most unfiltered glimpse into my world — a loss mama just doing the damn thing.

✨ Coming soon: new support groups, 1:1 mentoring, and more spaces to connect. I’m officially a Certified Grief Coach, and I’m pouring everything I’ve got into serving this community in deeper ways.

Check out katherinelazar.com for updates, sessions, and all things Loss Life.

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Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Evermore Adoption Consultants

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Sun, 2 Nov 2025 17:11:56 +0000

In this episode, I sit down with the founder of Evermore Adoption Consultants, Kristin Van Hoff, a birth mother whose own adoption story inspired her to build something extraordinary. Out of her personal experience came a mission rooted in love, integrity, and the belief that every family deserves clarity and compassion on their journey to adoption.

We explore what makes adoption such a complex and emotional process, why domestic adoption can feel so overwhelming, and how Evermore provides families with the tools, education, and support they need to move forward with confidence.

You’ll learn how Evermore stands apart from traditional referral-based services—serving families across all 50 states, partnering only with licensed agencies and attorneys, and maintaining the highest ethical standards every step of the way.

Whether you’re beginning your adoption journey or searching for trusted guidance, this conversation is a reminder that with knowledge and compassion, family is always possible.

WEBSITE: https://evermoreadoptionconsultants.com/

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Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

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Gabriela Rosa: Fertility Specialist

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 23 Oct 2025 12:00:00 +0000

Gabriela Rosa, DrPH (Candidate, Harvard), is a Harvard-awarded fertility specialist, founder of The Rosa Institute, and author of Fertility Breakthrough: Overcoming Infertility and Recurrent Miscarriage When Other Treatments Have Failed. She pioneered telehealth-based integrative fertility care, making evidence-based solutions accessible worldwide.

She is also the creator and host of The Fertility Challenge, a free online program that reaches tens of thousands of people globally each year. Through her F.E.R.T.I.L.E. Method®, Gabriela has supported more than 204,000 people across 111 countries. Published research demonstrates a 78.8% live birth rate among patients in her signature program—even after years of infertility, recurrent miscarriage, and failed treatments.

In this episode we discuss mamas who have experienced YEARS of infertility as well as helping mamas after loss with conceive again.

If you'd like to participate in her study regarding the effects of trauma and grief on fertility, please go to https://inspirestudy.online/

Find Gabriela on Instagram: @gabrielarosafertility

Website:https://fertilitybreakthrough.com/

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Head to KatherineLazar.com to book a time with Katherine to discuss all things grief and loss

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Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

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October Talk

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 16 Oct 2025 15:48:35 +0000

It's me hi, and I'm going in on a bunch of different topics! I had you submit them and I speak real talk on all of them...

Firstly, wtf October 15th. How was it that this day was on total steroids. Like, so many companies posting about baby loss and it's just weird.

Then I go into PAL, navigating parenting living kids, moving and major changes, early inductions with rainbows, overall how my bond with Brody has changed over the past 3.5 years, and a bunch of other things that I hope help you!

I'm hosting *free* Virtual Grief Support Groups so be on the lookout for announcements!

Go to LossLink.com to find your Loss Posse this holiday season! And I need your help! Spread the word about LossLink so that we can get more mama's who need us on the platform.

KatherineLazar.com has all the downloads, info, etc.

I will be starting 1:1 Grief Coaching so be on the lookout for when sign ups open!

I love you guys and your babies xxoo

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Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Alexandra & Wells part 2

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 9 Oct 2025 12:00:00 +0000

In this episode, Alexandra shares how her company, Alexandra & Wells, came to life out of love and loss. Together, we reflect on how our grief has evolved over the years and how motherhood—five years after loss—continues to take on new meaning. We talk about the reality of running a “grief business,” what it means to mother an angel long-term, and how we continue to redefine ourselves while keeping their memory close.

Find her website here: https://alexandraandwells.com/

Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/alexandraandwells/

Find your loss posse at LossLink.com

All my resources are on KatherineLazar.com and @thekatherinelazar

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Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Alexandra & Wells Part 1

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 2 Oct 2025 12:00:00 +0000

Alexandra is the founder of the clothing brand Alexandra & Wells, created in honor of her son, Wells, who tragically passed away in 2019 due to a negligent labor and delivery. In this deeply emotional episode, Alexandra shares Wells’ story publicly for the first time, along with the legal battle that followed as she sought justice for him.

Out of her grief, Alexandra built a brand that has reached and comforted thousands of loss moms around the world. Her iconic sweatshirt, Mother of an Angel, was the very first piece of clothing I bought in honor of my son, Brody. I needed the world to know he existed, and wearing it kept him close to me. For that, I will always be grateful to Alexandra and what she has created—something I know countless other mothers feel as well.

Her love for her son, and for all of our babies, shines through in everything she does. Alexandra is a true inspiration, turning unimaginable pain into a source of connection, remembrance, and love.

Find her clothing here: https://alexandraandwells.com/

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Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

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The Kaiden Paul Foundation

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Fri, 26 Sep 2025 14:59:21 +0000

Emilie is a mother to three boys: two on earth, one in heaven. Her identical twin boys were born - one sleeping, one living - on July 1, 2024 via emergency c-section due to spontaneous Twin Anemia Polycythemia Sequence (TAPS). She & her husband founded The Kaiden Paul Foundation to raise awareness, promote research & support families affected by TAPS. Emilie works as a pediatric neurosurgical PA-C & navigated going back to work at the hospital where her twins were born.

If you have an insight on how to help, or to connect with a fellow TAPS mama, find Emily on Instagram here:https://www.instagram.com/the_kaiden_paul_foundation/

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https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

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A Touch of Teddy

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 28 Aug 2025 12:00:00 +0000

Teddy’s mama, Elizabeth, started A Touch of Teddy 501(c)3 in 2023 in his memory, with a mission to send free teddy bear ornaments to pregnancy & infant loss families during the month of October. In this episode we discuss her passion for continuing her son's name by pouring her pain into helping other loss families.

Find her and help support on Instagram: @atouchofteddy

Website: https://atouchofteddy.org/

Go to LOSSLINK.COM to find your local Loss Posse!

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https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

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Lara: Losing Malek & Finding Answers

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Fri, 15 Aug 2025 02:39:48 +0000

In this episode, my ATL Loss Mama friend, Lara, tells us about her sweet 1st son Malek who passed at 28 weeks. She has since had her 2nd son Sami who is turning 1. Lara has a rare autoimmune disorder which could possibly play a part in her pregnancies. However, there just isn't much research or information out there. We discuss warning signs, not knowing what they were, lack of information during pregnancy and what that means for subsequent ones.

We hope this shines some light for anyone dealing with similar disease and wanting to bring home living babies.

Find Lara on IG at @lara.aqel

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https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

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Lexi: Leaning into the Pain

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Sat, 12 Jul 2025 19:30:52 +0000

After losing her first daughter Lily at birth, Lexi set out to feel it all. To her it was important for her to lean into her pain, her grief, and her motherhood to a baby no longer here. Lexi poured herself into her poetry, that she self published as a way to connect with Lily as well as take time and space to just BE with herself and her pain instead of pushing it away. Since Lily's death, Lexi has since had her little sister Daisy. We talk about the beauty and sadness in raising a living child after loss and the complexity of parenting one here and one in the sky.

You can tell her love for her daughters and the strength she exudes despite her pain is inspiring. Find her book on Amazon "The First 40 Weeks" as well as connect with her on Instagram: @grief.and.lily

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https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

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Loss Life Lately

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 3 Jul 2025 14:52:23 +0000

I'm on the mic to discuss what's been goin on in this sh*t show. I'm all over the place with my iced coffee and ketamine stories and punching the air and the fine line between crazy and not giving af and all the lessons I've learned in the last couple weeks. I hope this makes you feel less alone in this crazy Loss Life.

Go to KatherineLazar.com for all my helpful resources

Follow me on IG at @thekatherinelazar

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Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Elle: Triplet Loss Mom & Therapist

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Fri, 27 Jun 2025 20:28:39 +0000

Elle is mama to her triplets in the stars, Noah, Eden & Hudson who were born severely prematurely in June 2021. Since then she has had their little brother, Sonny born in 2023. Elle is a successful therapist for loss mamas, pregnancy after loss and parenting after loss mamas. She is the epitome of doing the work in order to help others function and navigate Loss Life.

Find her on Instagram and DM her for a session: @ellemargetsonhypnotherapy

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NOTE: I am not a doctor or a therapist. The views of my guests are not always reflective of my own. I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with loss life. These are my experiences, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone. Always do your own research and make informed decisions!

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Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Kate: Grief & Beauty after infant loss

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 19 Jun 2025 20:18:21 +0000

In this episode I speak to my girl Kate, her precious son, Cameron James Miranda was born May 4, 2022. He spent 9 days at home before being diagnosed with Enterovirus Myocarditis. He fought for 4 months in the CVICU. Cameron may not physically be here but over the past almost 3 years, her family continues to navigate their grief, honor Cameron, and choose to live a life full of love that they hope he would choose for them.

Kate has amazing insight as to how she has managed to live a beauty life along with her profound sadness. I especially love the part where she tells us about cooking her way through an entire cookbook for one year. It's truly inspiring and something I feel a lot of mamas would need to hear.

Find Kate on instagram at https://www.instagram.com/kkmiranda915/

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https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Emmy: Coping & Hoping After Stillbirth

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 12 Jun 2025 13:15:19 +0000

Emmy is the mother of Layla, who was stillborn at 39 weeks in November 2022. She finds comfort and copes with her pain through taking care of her home and helping others find healing as well. Although it feels like it in the beginning, she believes baby loss is not the end. The best thing we can do for our sweet babies and the greatest way we can honor them is to learn to heal, grow, love and laugh again.

To follow along her journey of hope, follow her on Instagram @emmysmaz and check out her podcast entitled “Beyond the Pain: Heart and Home Healing After Loss"

Thank you to LOSSLINK.COM, check it out now to find your loss posse of mamas who get it.

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Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

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She's back on her BS

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 5 Jun 2025 13:00:00 +0000

I'm back and with a mini "rebrand"...At a Total Loss is now Living the Loss Life because well, that's what I'm doing every single day and I'm here to share it with you.

When I first hit record, I was drowning. I had just lost Brody only 4 months prior. I was raw, wrecked, and trying to survive the total devastation of stillbirth. That title—At a Total Loss—fit where I was. But grief doesn’t stay in one place...and neither do we.

In losing him, I’ve also gained so much:

Perspective. Purpose. A community. A deeper love. A different version of myself.

So it’s time, for the podcast to evolve, too.

In this episode I fill you in on what's been happening since I took a mini break (whoops) and what's happening next. I had a wild experience in Albania and I finally tell Wolfy's birth story since he turns TWO YEARS OLD on June 6th! holy moly.

All of this is to let you know you're not alone no matter what stage you're in.

Thank you for staying on this path with me. We’re still grieving. We’re still healing. But now we’re living even though we've lost. 🖤

Go to katherinelazar.com for all the things and resources!

LossLink.com is where to find your Loss Posse!

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"I am not a licensed therapist, counselor, or medical professional. The conversations I offer are for peer support, personal sharing, and compassionate companionship. These episodes are not a substitute for professional mental health care, medical treatment, or crisis intervention. If you are in distress or need professional support, I encourage you to reach out to a qualified healthcare provider. By engaging in these episodes, you acknowledge that I am not responsible for any decisions or actions you take as a result of our discussions."

Anna & Kent Thalman: Filmmakers

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 20 Mar 2025 13:00:00 +0000

Anna and Kent are Atlanta Loss Parents whose son Seth was born and passed away on September 28, 2021. The film is screening this Saturday here in Atlanta and then soon nationwide at select theaters.

Official Website: https://www.invisiblemansion.com/rideinparadise

Trailer: https://vimeo.com/903818305

Evite to sign up even if you can't come and still get updates: https://evite.me/9FbezwVzAz

Podcast brought to you by LOSSLINK.COM! Find your Loss Posse today!

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Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

How Perfectionism Makes Grief Harder

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 13 Mar 2025 15:29:50 +0000

Rio Richards, Grief & Trauma Recovery Therapist, is BACK to discuss all things grief. She opens up about what she struggles with after losing her father 4 years ago. We specifically talk about the 8 Ways That Perfectionism Makes Grieving Harder founded on an Instagram post that she made.

Here's what we unpack:

Constantly wondering if you're feeling the "right" thing at the "right" time
Hiding your feelings because they don't feel "appropriate"
Starting but never finishing memorial projects because nothing feels "worthy" enough
Avoiding support because you "should handle this on your own"
Comparing your grief to others and always finding yourself lacking
Apologizing for talking about your loss or for "bringing everyone down"
Exhausting yourself by trying to appear "strong" or "put together"
Criticizing yourself for not being "over it" by some arbitrary timeline

Follow Rio on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/andthatsgrief/

Substack: https://substack.com/@touchingthefire?utm_source=top-search

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Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

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January 87, 2025

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Sat, 1 Feb 2025 04:37:07 +0000

This is the 87th day of January and we are still doin the damn thing. I get on the mic to talk about the latest and greatest in loss life...

Here's what I talk about:

This being the longest month ever and my one resolution has failed
The absolute anger that comes with baby loss
Being a *good* person despite loss
A story about a pregnant chick next to me at the salon
“A mother to 2 livings and an angel”
Leaving the babies with someone.
Staying connected to your partner.
Breastfeeding chaos.
Being a good mom to livings and babies that are gone.

Follow me on IG at @thekatherinelazar

Podcast brought to you by LossLink.com

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Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Mason Sawyer

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 23 Jan 2025 14:00:00 +0000

Mason of the 10ninety Podcast was the guest speaker at our 2025 raised By angels Charity Gala this past weekend. On July 25, 2021, Mason’s life changed forever when he lost his wife Kortni, son Riggins, and daughter Franki in a devastating car accident. He also lost his older brother, Race, and his nephew, Rider.

Now focused on raising his surviving son, Blue, Mason draws strength from the 10/90 Principle, emphasizing that life is 10% what happens to you and 90% how you respond. He shares his journey and message of resilience through his podcast, The10ninety, and as a public speaker, inspiring others to find hope and purpose in adversity.

This was a *dream* episode as Mason is one of the first voices I heard when searching for guidance after losing Brody. I love this conversation. Two grievers (with very different losses) just speaking raw and unfiltered.

More info on Mason: WEBSITE

Find him on IG: https://www.instagram.com/10ninetyrule/

My Charity Org: https://raisedbyangels.org/

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https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

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New Year, Same Sh*t

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 16 Jan 2025 14:00:00 +0000

Hey everyone! I'm on the mic just yappin away, it's fun for me. I talk about this new year and how literally nothing is going to change (resolutions are dumb after your baby dies). I also have some crazy random story that happened to me that I'm still shocked about. I'm your biggest hype girl so there will def be a TedTalk/motivational speaker moment in there so you're welcome babes :)...I think sometimes it's nice to just hear perspective from a "regular loss mama" just trying to do the damn thing every single day after her baby dies. SO HERE SHE IS.

Hit me up on IG @thekatherinelazar

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https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Dr Joanne Cacciatore- Grief Doctor

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 9 Jan 2025 14:00:00 +0000

This is one of THE most powerfully inspiring episodes I've done to date. PLEASE, if you are a loss parent and even if you are not, listen to this episode....Dr. Joanne Cacciatore is a bereaved mother to her daughter Cheyenne born still 30 years ago. She is also the founder of the MISS Foundation, an international NGO that serves families whose children have died. She is also a tenured research professor and senior Wrigley Institute of Sustainability Scholar at Arizona State University, spearheading the Graduate Certificate in Trauma and Bereavement. Her best selling book, Bearing the Unbearable: Love, Loss, and the Heartbreaking Path of Grief, is a national award winning best seller that has helped revolutionize the way our culture thinks, and feels, about grief. She works with and counsels families from all around the world who have experienced catastrophic deaths. Dr. Jo, believing that current practices around food production are a social, ethical, and environmental justice issue, is a vegan and hasn’t eaten meat since 1972. She also teaches meditation, mindfulness, and compassion and ahimsa practices to students and clients from around the world.

Dr Jo started The Selah Carefarm just outside of Sedona, AZ. It is the first carefarm for the traumatically bereaved in the U.S. It is a very special place on 20 acres of beautiful farmland where bereaved family members can come to both give and receive connection, compassion, and understanding. All the animals on the carefarm have been rescued from abuse, neglect, torture, or homelessness. Our grieving families know what it means to suffer, and so do these animals.

Dr Jo is truly a power house and a dream guest of mine, I am a different person after getting to speak with her.

To get more info on the carefarm: The Selah Carefarm

I mention her Open Letter to Grievers. I saved it to my phone screen and read it almost every day after losing Brody. Read it here: Open Letter To Grievers

This pod is brought to you by LossLink

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https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

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Tallia: Loss Mama & Life Coach

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Wed, 11 Dec 2024 14:00:00 +0000

Tallia Deljou is a fellow loss mom and life coach specializing in healing emotional wounds. Her loss journey includes 2 recurrent miscarriages followed by the loss of her son Araam, who was born prematurely at 22 weeks and 3 days and joined us earth side for 15 hours. She takes a gentle and compassionate approach to healing after loss, teaching us how to welcome every emotion and feel it all.

I won't lie to y'all, we do a mock session and some things that I'm feeling do come up. It's raw, it's real, it's a no judgement zone. This is how it is...for me at least. If you want to contact Tallia for your own session, the info is below...

Links to instagram @talliadeljou and workshop replays:

On managing triggers after loss: https://talliadeljou.myflodesk.com/lossreplay

On protecting your peace and setting boundaries after loss: https://talliadeljou.myflodesk.com/protectpeace

On navigating anger after loss: https://talliadeljou.myflodesk.com/anger

Podcast is brought to you by LOSSLINK.COM

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Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

100th Episode!

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Wed, 4 Dec 2024 11:00:00 +0000

Liz from Episode 1 is back to check in about where she is 2 years after our first recording ( I cannot believe it!) At the time, I was 6 months out from losing Brody and Liz was 9 months out from losing her Harrison. We talk about anger, and owning our grief, how it's managed now, and how we've gotten stronger and able to handle our grief. Being advocates for shaping our own loss life, we talk about how we have done that as well as what we continue to struggle with in the specific stages we are in. We hope to shed some light on how grief can progress over time. This is real talk, y'all we don't hold back on our thoughts and experiences and hope that this helps <3

This Podcast is brought to you by LOSSLINK. Go to LossLink.com to find other mothers to connect with in your home town or anywhere in the world. Loss Life is tough, find others to do it with who get it.

Thank you Liz for coming back on to catch up. Follow her on IG @lizmyers19

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https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

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Maila's Present

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Wed, 27 Nov 2024 14:21:51 +0000

Helena's beloved daughter, Maila, was born still at 36 weeks and 5 days on December 29th, 2022 despite being in "perfect health" during her pregnancy. She is the inspiration behind creating personalized baby loss keepsake books because babies like Maila deserve to be remembered. Maila’s Presents are thoughtful baby loss gifts, offering bereaved parents a tangible way to honor their precious children and keep their memories alive within their families for generations. If you are searching for meaningful baby loss keepsake gifts, Maila’s Presents provide a beautiful and heartfelt way to commemorate the lives of babies gone too soon.

This episode is very raw and real. We talk a lot of truths about what happens when we lose our babies. Helena is courageous and such an inspiration. If you are looking for a sign to create something for your baby, this is it.

Find these beautiful books here: https://mailaspresent.com/

You can also find them on IG at https://www.instagram.com/mailaspresent/

Helena also has a podcast which you can find here: https://www.instagram.com/remembermeourbabies/

The book Spirit Babies: https://www.amazon.com/Spirit-Babies-Communicate-Child-Youre/dp/0385338120

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Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Holidays After Loss

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Mon, 18 Nov 2024 15:14:40 +0000

*Recoded prior to Halloween*...Holidays after baby loss are so weird. I'll also share insight from other mamas on how they've dealt in the past and the advice they have moving forward. Ways to honor our babies will also be shared as this is a huge struggle, especially in the beginning.

Here's what I tackle:

Declining invites to holiday events
Handling Triggering people
Halloween and all the death
Having living kids while mourning during the holidays.
Thanksgiving and how I've handled it so far
Christmas and ways to honor.

And holidays change and evolve as time moves forward. I recorded one of these the holidays after I lost Brody. And I'm entering into my 3rd season and things are very different. So no matter what phase you're in, it might help to hear how it does change with time. Main point: YOU'RE SO NOT ALONE

These are my viewpoints and topics that I sought out information about. This is the advice I give and share with you all based off hundreds of conversations I've had. I hope that i helps as we navigate one of the hardest times of the year.

PODCAST BROUGHT TO YOU BY LOSSLINK.COM, I private community of bereaved mothers looking to connect through DMs or Discussions with those in their area or about similar loss experiences.

Helpful mentions: @andthatsgrief on IG and @talliadeljou

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Support the podcast and shop the store! At a Total Loss Shop

Instagram @thekatherinelazar

Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Rio Richards | Grief & Trauma Recovery Therapist

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Mon, 11 Nov 2024 11:00:00 +0000

Rio is a psychotherapist and grief integration coach, specializing in helping individuals and couples navigate the profound and complex journey of loss and trauma. With a somatic and psychodynamic lens, Rio helps clients heal and rebuild using both the power of the mind and body for long-term resilience and change. Her mission is to help those who feel stuck and powerless in the aftermath of tragedy find their way to a new version of themselves with radical compassion and unapologetic clarity.

Y'alllll this episode is just so so needed. It shines light on what A LOT of us deal with when it comes to relationships after loss and how we are impacted by the secondary loss of them.

What we discuss:

How to deal with people who don't get it
Trauma dumping on people we love
How grief affects the body
How people treat you and those that don't show up
Secondary losses
Other cultures and their grief
How society treats grievers
Her grief therapy and Somatic EMDR therapy.

She is just wonderful! Here is how you can access her amazing services:

Contact her for 1:1

On Instagram: @andthatsgrief

She is constantly doing free workshops so follow her for the latest!

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Jillian + Lorenzo

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Mon, 2 Sep 2024 19:38:11 +0000

Jillian is the founder of Courage in Time Inc., a nonprofit supporting families who have experienced stillbirth and infant loss through curated bereavement boxes, grief and postpartum resources, and connection to other bereaved families. She established this courageous space after her son Lorenzo died in the NICU at 12 days old. She is inspirational and relatable and all things that show how much she loves her son and is willing to help others walking this horrible path of life after baby loss.

JOIN LOSSLINK to connect with other mothers with similar loss: https://www.losslink.com/

Check the website here: https://www.courageintime.com/

Purchase boxes here: https://www.courageintime.com/courage-box

Fine her on IG at https://www.instagram.com/courage_in_time/?hl=en

Email her at courageintime@gmail.com

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Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/
https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/
https://www.pushpregnancy.org/
https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

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Lyndsay + Kove

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Sun, 4 Aug 2024 22:22:15 +0000

I chat with Lyndsay about her precious second son, Kove, who was born still at 37 weeks just a little over a year ago. That is when her grief and baby loss journey began. Since then she has started Kove's Keeper, a bereavement care package for parents suffering stillbirth & infant loss in the local hospitals. Devastation has since happened again as Lyndsay suffered a miscarriage since Kove's death. She is now currently pregnant for the 4th time and we discuss the challenges of pregnancy after loss. Lyndsay is also very open about her faith in God & how she has managed this relationship.

Lyndsay is a sweet soul just wanting to parent Kove the best way she can and to help other Loss Moms out there. If you'd like to speak with her, find her on IG @_lyndsburns_ or shoot her an email at lyndsayjackson14@gmail.com

Find other Loss Moms to connect with at LossLink.com! Use code BRODY18 to get your first month for $1.

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Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/
https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/
https://www.pushpregnancy.org/
https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Count the Kicks/Healthy Birth Day

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Mon, 29 Jul 2024 14:31:15 +0000

Kimberly Isburg, Communications Manager for Count the Kicks and Healthy Birth Day, joins me to discuss the importance of tracking fetal movement and the mission that she is on with her team to make preventable stillbirth a thing of the past.

I of course chime in with my own personal experiences regarding Brody and tracking movement in my subsequent pregnancies.

There is a lot of info in this podcast and it is good for anyone who is pregnant or planning to become pregnant, even without loss. VITAL information!

We mention a lot of great resources. Check out the links below:

Here is the Evidence page for Count the Kicks: https://countthekicks.org/why-we-count/evidence/
Here is the App Download page: https://countthekicks.org/download-app/
Healthy Birth Day Website: https://healthybirthday.org/
Stillbirth Prevention Act page: https://healthybirthday.org/advocacy/stillbirth-prevention-act/

Watch us on the At a Total Loss podcast YouTube channel! https://youtu.be/JPYrIiMfe2U

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Some helpful resources:
https://countthekicks.org/
https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/
https://www.pushpregnancy.org/
https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Triggers, Spirals & Complaining

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Sun, 21 Jul 2024 16:39:49 +0000

I break down 3 popular topics after baby loss.

What triggers us & how we react to it
The grief spirals that come out of nowhere & how they are not setbacks
Having zero tolerance for others complaining

Y'all talk to me about these things ALL the time on instagram and I'm diving in to explain my thoughts as well as the feedback I've gotten from 100s of mommas about them. I may or may not go on a small rant (lol) but hey whatever, that's how I roll. So, whether you agree or not on everything, I hope that some of it helps you feel less alone & validated for the complicated experiences and feelings we have after we lose our babies.

Want to connect with other Loss Moms? Go to LossLink.com to find those that have experienced similar loss and connect with like minded Loss Moms!

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Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Catherine: Incompetent Cervix, Placental Abruption & DIC

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Sun, 7 Jul 2024 17:35:20 +0000

Catherine is the mother to her TWO angel babies, Brooklyn (11/29/16) and Miles (12/7/17 - 12/14/17) and her now miracle baby, Lux. Catherine's experiences have covered a range of "rare" circumstances. We discuss ALL of it. She has faced an incompetent cervix, placental abruption, disseminated intravascular coagulation (DIC), the NICU, a journey with a gestational carrier and miscarriages. After thinking she would never be able to physically carry another baby, she carried her miracle baby, Lux, to 37 weeks in 2021. Almost 8 years after her first loss, she shows us that grief has no expiration and how she includes all of her babies in their family today.

Check out her Podcast: Angel Moms Sisterhood

Instagram: @angelmoms.sisterhood

YouTube: @angelmomssisterhood

Email: angelmomssisterhood@gmail.com

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Or if it's after July 18th, go to LossLink.com

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Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Anxiety During PAL

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Sun, 23 Jun 2024 14:59:19 +0000

I tackle THE most requested topic from my followers "how do handle anxiety during pregnancy after loss". So I polled and here I read off all the things y'all sent to me regarding this topic. You will hear be reading so if watching it helps, go to my At a Total Loss Youtube page :)...Here is what I talk about:

Trying to conceive & how to know you're ready
Ultrasounds
Hope vs anxiety
What you can control vs what you cannot
Having a game plan/protocol
Coping with crippling anxiety
Announcing vs waiting to announce
At home Dopplers
Intuition vs fear
Guidance from our Angel Babies or Signs from them
MEDICATION DURING PREGNANCY
What was helpful during PAL.
omg and so much more...

I CANNOT stress this enough: consult with all of your medical professionals, research and do what's best for you based off an educated position. I am NOT a doctor so everything I say is based off MY personal experiences and all the experiences that were shared with me through my audience.

Links to things I mentioned in the episode:

LossLink coming soon! Join this private community of loss moms who want to connect virtually or in person. Sign up for the waiting list here: LossLink Waitlist

Count the Kicks

The book "Spirit Babies'

The book "Signs"

Message me if there are any I didn't include that you want.

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Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

PAL Birth Plan

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Sun, 9 Jun 2024 20:06:50 +0000

Amanda, Junie's Mama, comes on to talk about getting your Pregnancy After Loss (PAL) Birth Plan together. Juniper was born still at 38 weeks due to an undiagnosed small placenta (if you want to hear the whole story, find the episode 'Amanda + Juniper'). Since then, Amanda has been a huge advocate for preventative care as well as a resource for so many mama's who have experienced a tragic loss.

We know how much fear there is around the birth of the baby after loss, so Amanda has a list of things that we can think about doing to prepare. We also dive into protocols & preventative measures for the pregnancy as we found that having a game plan helped so much while navigating this scary time.

Helpful Tools & Resources:

ACOG recommendations: Google Doc

Count the Kicks: Info

Measure The Placenta: Info Here

Dr Harvey Kliman at Yale: Website

Find Amanda on IG at @orangeafmama

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Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Molly + Roman

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Sun, 2 Jun 2024 17:59:36 +0000

Molly talks about her precious Roman who was stillborn at full term just over a year ago. Molly provides insight on her faith, her support group, and gives advice to anyone who is afraid to experience joy after baby loss. We also talk about signs and how she whole heartedly believes she receives them letting her know Roman is ok. The stories will give you chills.

Find Molly on IG at @champagnegetaway

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Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

What Else We Lose After Loss

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Sun, 26 May 2024 18:09:59 +0000

I asked what y'all wanted to hear about. So many of you wanted to discuss the added losses after our babies die. I took your submissions and I discuss the following in this episode:

The inability to relax and always have to run at max capacity.
The loss of innocence
Losing our faith.
Becoming an extreme introvert now.
Unable to look at old photos
Accepting this reality
No longer having a tolerance for petty stuff
Debilitating Anxiety that we never had before
Loss of trust that things will be ok.
And a lot more...

I also go on a tangent about lawn maintenance so I'm sorry lol.

I do a lot of these polls to see what y'all want to discuss, so if you don't already follow on Instagram, go here and be a part of the next poll>>> @thekatherinelazar

Want to watch this episode? Go to my YouTube At a Total Loss channel!>>> YOUTUBE

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Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Courtney + Conrad

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Sun, 19 May 2024 17:45:28 +0000

Courtney's precious Conrad was born still after a seemingly perfect pregnancy. Her journey to this point is super insightful and extremely raw. We chat about literally everything in this episode. No really, like, wanna hear 2 loss moms just going IN on this whole situation, this is the episode. Does it sound like we're ranting? GOOD because we are and we are allowed to. Most *normal* mothers do this but with wayyy less intense subject matter. We are keeping it very real here. Here is what else we talk about in this almost 2 HOUR episode...

Being sent home without babies but with our mental health in extreme danger.
Post Partum struggles
The loss of her parents + the loss of her baby.
We are expected to "move on" when we just cannot do that.
Society likes to distance themselves from death yet sensationalize it on TV & film.
Letting medical pros know how horrible this is so that they get it.
The struggles of having a living baby after loss.
Medications to take while struggling
Relationship with God
I told you we tackle a lot lol... AND there's more!

We just want this to help. You might not agree with everything you hear (that's ok) but at least one little nugget or glimmer is what we're going for here.

Find Courtney on Instagram at @courtneydouglascoaching

https://www.instagram.com/courtneydouglascoaching/

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Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Bri: CHD; Ebstein's Anomaly

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Sun, 21 Apr 2024 17:28:06 +0000

Bri's daughter Caroline was diagnosed with a rare form of CHD called Ebstein’s Anomaly. Living in Sacramento, her and her husband moved to Stanford to ensure she received the best possible care. After Caroline was born, she spent 27 days fighting for her life until ultimately passing away peacefully in her mother's arms. Among her diagnoses it was also found that she had Pallister-Killian Syndrome (PKS) after she was born.

Bri talks about this journey. From finding out about her daughter's rare disorder, to how to proceed, to giving birth to her daughter alive, to then deciding to do surgeries and the days she lived in the NICU. Bri walked away with zero regrets, something a lot of loss momma's wish they could do.

Our hope is that this story finds someone who needs to hear it. Bri would love to connect with anyone who can resonate with Caroline's story or needs guidance navigating their own. But no matter what your experiences are, it helps to hear about how to cope, how to hold onto hope, and how you are anything but alone.

Information on Ebstein's Anomaly: HERE

To connect with Bri, find her on Instagram at @brihansen

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NOTE: I am not a doctor or a therapist. The views of my guests are not always reflective of my own. I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. These are my experiences, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone. Always do your own research and make informed decisions! For more REAL TALK about baby loss and grief, hit subscribe to be notified when another episode drops! Support the podcast and shop the store! At a Total Loss Shop Instagram @thekatherinelazar Youtube: @thekatherinelazar Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com Website: www.katherinelazar.com Some helpful resources: https://countthekicks.org/ https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/ https://www.pushpregnancy.org/ https://www.tommys.org/ Local to Atlanta: https://www.northsidepnl.com/

4 Types of Relationship Loss

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Sun, 14 Apr 2024 21:30:19 +0000

Loss of relationships is a HUGE topic after baby death. In this episode, I break down the 4 categories of family & friend relationship loss that I see and hear about all the time.

1) People who choose to exit your life

2) Toxic people who you choose to separate from

3) Good intentioned people who just don't see your loss the same

4) Awesome people whose stage of life is too hard to be around.

I break each of these down and also dig into the fact that we have to take into accountability our own behaviors. It's a sticky situation and one that no one tells us how to navigate. i hope to shine light on this, help you feel less alone, and to potentially guide you in a way that helps you navigate it all.

Watch it on my At a Total Loss YouTube Channel!

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Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Making Decisions After Loss

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Sun, 7 Apr 2024 15:46:58 +0000

I'm tackling the topic of having to make decisions after loss. While some don't think this is an issue, Loss Moms find it to be a massive one. Especially when it comes to PAL, babies, loved ones, & anything having to do with choices.

\Loss changes us radically. So much so that everything becomes a matter of life & death even if it's a casual situation. The weight of having to make choices is almost paralyzing sometimes. Here I dive into it and shed some light on how I feel about it and what others I've spoke to feel as well.

Hope it helps!

To watch on YouTube: At a Total Loss YouTube Channel

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Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta: https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Sharon: Psychic Medium

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Sun, 24 Mar 2024 02:28:44 +0000

Sharon's life changed forever with the tragic death of Matthew, her only child, when he was just 17 years old. She felt she had no purpose and became angry and lost. She then consulted with many mediums and received validating messages, proving that Matthew was still “alive” and was helping from the other side. Sharon realized that we all have the natural ability to communicate with our loved ones in spirit and that she too could become a medium. This was her destiny, and a way to make some sense out of her tragedy by helping others.

This episode is Sharon's perspective on life after death and how our loved ones are still with us. Many Loss Mommas seek out the guidance of psychic mediums. So if you have ever been curious, here is a glimpse of what to expect if you work with one like Sharon.

To watch this episode, head to YouTube: At A Total Loss YouTube Channel

If you'd like to contact her:

Email: sharonmcgregor65@gmail.com

Website: https://sharonmcgregor.ca/

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Edlyn: When Lightning Strikes Twice

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Sat, 9 Mar 2024 13:00:00 +0000

For Edlyn, lightning has struck twice: Her first son, Emiliano, was born still 6 years ago. And just 2 years ago, her daughter Avianna died at just 5 months old. She tells us their stories and how she has dealt with such incredible pain and heartbreak, as well as, the tremendous blame she puts on herself. Her perspective is inspiring and for anyone who needs a reminder of how to keep going, Edlyn is it. If she can, we can too.

This story is not to tell you not to have hope. This story is to show you how one person can survive the worst things a mother can go through and still stand, still laugh, still be a good person, and most of all still love herself. We hope this helps.

To talk to Edlyn, find her on Instagram at @edlynn.hernandez

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Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

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Serena: Staying connected to your baby

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Sat, 2 Mar 2024 15:40:31 +0000

Serena joins me to talk about her beautiful son, Christopher who died from Cord Stricture just one year ago. We talk about signs from him and the strong connection she has. Serena believes that we are all intuitive we just have to pay attention and recognize it. The signs from Christopher that she tells me about are WILD y'all. You have to listen!

I think once our baby dies, we still feel so connected. But what does that connection look like now that they're gone? This episode really does shine light on this and Serena radiates peace and simplifies what it means to stay connected to our babies.

I hope this episode helps

Please reach out to Serena if you feel called to. Find her on IG at @serena.elizabeth93

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Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

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Anna: Surrogacy After Loss

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Sat, 24 Feb 2024 20:03:34 +0000

Anna joins me to talk about her beautiful daughter Evie, who was born still after a uterine abruption. Anna's pregnancies have been extremely high risk and accepting that it was ultimately too dangerous to carry again, she decided to contact a surrogate, or in this case a gestational carrier. She explains to us the complicated journey of finding one and going through the entire process. We hope that this sheds light on a topic that is rather common within the loss community but that we find isn't spoken about as much.

*Please note that this was recorded after the ruling in Alabama therefore we do not discuss this topic.

If you are curious about surrogacy or have any questions, please feel free to reach out to Anna on Instagram @_anna.e.russell_

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Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

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Dr Jason Collins: Umbilical Cord Specialist

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Sun, 18 Feb 2024 02:01:33 +0000

Dr. Jason Collins is the founder of the Pregnancy Institute. His career and passion has focused on stillbirth, umbilical cord accidents and umbilical cord pathology. Dr. Collins has been researching cord issues and deaths for over 20 years. His professional opinions come from evidence based facts, which you will hear throughout this entire episode. He continues his research into these tragic losses and would love to connect with newly bereaved parents to help them find answers as well as navigate subsequent pregnancies.

*NOTE: You will hear us referencing images and documents. If you'd like to see them while listening to this episode, go to my Youtube page to watch the video of this recording. YouTube

If you'd like to speak with Dr Collins, you can email him here: jcollinsmd77@gmail.com

**This information is not intended to vilify medical professionals. It is strictly educational to point out the lack of education on umbilical cords and how we as bereaved mothers can get answers and advocate for ourselves in the event our providers do not have the understanding needed. Always consult with your medical professional, but also, arm yourself with your own education and knowledge.

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Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

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Ashley + Daniel

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Fri, 9 Feb 2024 16:05:11 +0000

Ashley and I are in the Atlanta studio to talk about her precious son Daniel who died from a cord accident and was born still in April 2023. As she approaches his first birthday, she talks about how her grief has evolved, her faith and how she decided to plan a golf tournament in Daniel's name.

What we discuss:

Regretting the decision not to have a funeral/memorial service
Not knowing how to answer questions with grief brain
The unfairness of how our babies didn't live and others did
Accelerated Resolution Therapy
Cord Accidents
Grief support for living siblings and helping them navigate it
And so much more relatable info...

Find Ashley on IG: @apattkd15

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Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/
https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/
https://www.pushpregnancy.org/
https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

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Pregnancy After Loss Support (PALS)

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Sat, 3 Feb 2024 16:53:40 +0000

Lindsey M. Henke is a licensed clinical social worker and psychotherapist specializing in the grief that accompanies life transitions, specifically during motherhood. She founded Pregnancy After Loss Support (PALS), a nonprofit for parents pregnant after a previous perinatal loss or infant death. Her writing has been featured on TODAY.com and in Pregnancy and Newborn magazine, Huffington Post, and the New York Times. Her new book, "When Skies Are Gray" is being released later in the year.

In this episode we discuss the challenges that pregnancy and parenting after loss bring, the common fears that moms have, and the therapies we can do that can help.

Find her on Instagram @pregnancyafterlosssupport & @LindseyMHenke

Pregnancy After Loss Support

About Lindsey

Lindsey's Book: "When Skies Are Gray"

Pregnancy After Loss App

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https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

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Maternity Leave Policies & Returning to Work After Loss

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Fri, 26 Jan 2024 19:36:42 +0000

Liz's son, Harrison, was stillborn at full term. She joins me in discussing her experiences in her workplace with maternity leave policy and what that looked like. When she found that the terms were not even in place for mothers who didn't get to bring their baby home, she did a ton of research and went to bat for herself and her son, Harrison. She gives some recommendations on how you too can approach your company to try to make change happen. We also talk about returning to work and the different ways you can handle it.

Going back to work is scary. It's a place where you were at pregnant and happy. Going back after your baby dies seems like going back in time where nothing happened. It's weird and it's a little jarring. Some don't ever want to return and some want to go back ASAP for the distraction. Whatever you feel, it's normal and in this episode we discuss it all.

We hope it helps!

To get some guidance from Liz on how to handle your workplace policy, message her on LinkedIn https://www.linkedin.com/in/lizmyers19/

Or on Instagram @lizmyers19

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Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Your Baby's Birthday

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Sat, 20 Jan 2024 15:54:24 +0000

In this episode, I answer your questions and concerns regarding your baby's birthday. I also give perspective on the difference in Brody's 1st Birthday and his 2nd that we just experienced yesterday. Along with all of this, I read to you some examples of what other parents do on their baby's birthday to help give you some ideas or to help normalize what you'd like to or are already doing.

It's a tough topic, and it's not easy being a parent to a dead child. We are doing our absolute best. I hope this episode sheds some light on the subject and helps guide you through the 1st, 2nd or whatever year it is if you need some insight.

Hit me up on IG! @thekatherinelazar

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Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Support Guide

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 11 Jan 2024 14:49:33 +0000

At the request of many, Liz and I created this short episode to share with those in your circle. We answer your Instagram submissions on what you want others to know. So many times support people just have no idea how to navigate this and in the thick of grief, loss parents don't have the words to tell them. Well, we hope that this episode can be shared with those that are looking for ways to help or maybe a guide on what NOT to do.

Loss Parents, this is also a great episode to help validate how you're feeling in response to how others are treating the death of your baby. We are here to help you realize you are not alone in how you feel and maybe suggest some ways that you can give to those around you that would better help.

Support people are our lifeline during the darkest times a human can experience. So if you are a support person, thank you for even listening to try to help. We can't do it without good support and love.

Liz and I are brutally honest and we of course are only speaking from our own opinions and experiences. Not speaking for everyone out there. In the 100s of conversations I've had with loss parents, I can tell you that these are the most popular things that they want support people to know.

We hope it helps!

Hit up Liz on Instagram @lizmyers19

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Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Pregnancy After Loss: Gender Disappointment

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Fri, 5 Jan 2024 02:10:48 +0000

Liz (from episode 1 and 30) is back to discuss this taboo topic of "Gender Disappointment" during PAL. This is a topic we get asked about A LOT. Now, I don't love this phrase but it's general and we understand what it means without further explanation. I'd like to say it's more like Gender Processing because there's definitely a reaction to having the opposite sex of the baby you lost. We dive into the dark, the ugly, the things we only say to each other. Grief is a big topic we discuss as well as how we handled PAL. We LOVE our babies, however, there are moments that we have to process not having the "picture" we always thought we had.

We are open and honest about this and we hope it helps. This is REAL TALK, mommas!

Hit up Liz on IG @lizmyers19

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Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Intimacy & Sex After Loss

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 28 Dec 2023 12:00:00 +0000

Amanda Louder is a Certified Sex & Marriage Coach who helps men & women overcome their obstacles to create a more emotionally, mentally, spiritually, and physically intimate relationship. She speaks from her own Christian faith lens for those who want to involve their Christianity in their coaching.

We discuss a topic that I feel doesn't get addressed: Intimacy after loss and the challenges it brings including TTC after loss. Amanda is also the host of the Sex for Saints Podcast where she discusses literally everything she possibly can regarding sex coaching.

We talk about it ALL. Nothing was off the table. Everything from hating our bodies after it was supposed to take care of our babies, to how trauma affects our libido, to becoming consumed with wanting to get pregnant again ASAP, to communicating how we feel to our partners and finally, how to reconnect with them.

Amanda is gentle and kind in her approach and has helped so many people regain their intimacy after their baby died. She provides a safe space to discuss this vulnerable topic. Y'all will learn SO much from this episode! So interesting!

If you'd like to get in touch with Amanda, find her on Instagram and mention this podcast episode! @christiansexcoach

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Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

'Tis the Season to be Griefy + more

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 21 Dec 2023 20:26:12 +0000

You asked and I'm answering! Y'all submitted questions and topics on Instagram and here's what I'm covering in this episode:

New Years resolutions are sh*t now.
Not setting goals and making plans much anymore
How conversations with Loss Moms are soooo different than non loss
My downloadable survival guides coming soon!
I go off on a leaf blower tangent

Answering your questions:

“Getting past caring how other feel when I include my son on my holiday card”
“Parenting after loss: thought the holidays would be easier after having more kids, it’s only become worse grief wise. Getting more sad and angry every year realizing what my baby and I missed out on.“
“Health and Anxiety after loss”
“How does life after loss (or you after loss) feel different and yet the same?”
“How to deal with shitty family who didn’t support you during loss and much more”
“How to manage feelings about due date”
“How to face another year”
“How infertility impacts TTC after loss”
“How to advocate for yourself in PAL following a stillbirth”
“How the fuck anyone survives pregnancy after traumatic loss”
“7 weeks and haven’t told anyone because don’t want to hear about 'Gods plan'"
Terrified to go to the doc, new MFM and now I know too much.”

I hope your holidays are everything that you need them to be! Protect your peace, include your baby and don't take sh*t from anyone. Also hit me up, I'll be boozin :)

Follow me on the IG! @thekatherinelazar

I mentioned Molly Bears! https://mollybears.org/

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Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Jeanette + Sabrina: 40 years later

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 14 Dec 2023 12:00:00 +0000

This momma's beautiful daughter was stillborn in 1985. Her perspective ranges over 40 years and she gives insight on what she did and didn't do over the years. We talk about shame behind stillbirth, fear of telling people about them, bringing them through the years and trying to honor them privately.

This is incredible insight from a momma who has done this for decades. If you are a momma who lost years ago, please reach out to her. She is looking to now talk about Sabrina more, help others in this situation, and talk to mommas who may struggle with their grief so long after.

Email Jeanette at jallen@trcac.org

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Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Loss Dad Q&A

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 7 Dec 2023 12:00:00 +0000

Brody's dad, my husband Michael is back to answer questions that we polled from Instagram. This is the perspective of a loss dad and you will hear our back and forth regarding how differently we feel and think in grief, coping, PAL and parenting after loss. Michael also has 3 other episodes: one right after Brody's death, one about TTC and PAL, and the most recent is about holidays after loss. Check them out!

Here are the questions the audience asked and we answered:

How do you stay strong for Katherine when you feel like you’re struggling too?
Do you ever have any weak moments in grief that you don't tell Katherine?
When you have heavy grief moments, how did you deal with it?
What is the most helpful thing that your wife did for you?
How did you support Katherine during PAL?
What was PAL like for the Loss Dad?
What was helpful during PAL?
Dad’s perspective of the birth of the second baby?
Meaningful but useful gifts for Loss Dads?

If you want to reach out to Michael, find him on Instagram at: @lazar.michael

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Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Casey + Charlotte

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 30 Nov 2023 12:00:00 +0000

Casey tells us about her beautiful daughter, Charlotte, who was stillborn at 39 weeks from what she feels was a failed induction. She walked into the hospital with a perfectly healthy baby, was heavily monitored but ended up leaving heartbroken without her daughter. It’s been over 2 years and Casey now hopes to find other loss moms that share her experience of losing her daughter during labor. If you are a momma that has a similar story, please reach out to Casey.

We also discuss:

Trust in our medical professionals
The dangers of induction & what we need to be told
Getting properly informed of ALL risks when having to make decisions
Having a perfect pregnancy after loss
Conflicted about God and his involvement
And a lot more...

You can find Casey on Instagram @Caseyhl21

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NOTE: I am not a doctor or a therapist. The views of my guests are not always reflective of my own. I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. These are my experiences, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone. Always do your own research and make informed decisions! We are real loss moms telling our FACTS regarding our losses. This isn't to bash anyone, to scare or or lose trust in medical care or deter anyone from decisions they have to make. These are just our stories and we are telling it because it's our life. We wish someone had told us their story. Maybe it would have changed things for us. Take what you want from it and ALWAYS do your own homework.

For more REAL TALK about baby loss and grief, hit subscribe to be notified when another episode drops!

Support the podcast and shop the store! At a Total Loss Shop

Instagram @thekatherinelazar

Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Thankful for You

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 23 Nov 2023 12:28:52 +0000

I figured today was heavy for a lot of us so I asked Andrea, Terra's Mom, from episode 59 to hop on a quick recording with like 2 hours notice. I scrapped my whole plan for this week and just wanted a conversation that might be entertaining for those who may need it. We do cover baby death as we both had full term stillbirths and miss our babies tremendously but we have given ourselves "permission" to laugh if we need to. And we hope you can do the same. Take care of yourselves today, Mommas. Know we are always here for you...

We answer:

How has your family reacted to your dark humor when it comes to baby loss?
How do you cut out toxic people?
How do you handle your partner who is so thankful you're alive but you really don't feel like you are?
What's your coping vice?

We also talk about:

Gratitude and Grief at the same time
Holidays and having no expectations
The expectations put on us
Going to PTO meetings when grieving
Explaining yourself for the way you are after loss
Laughing as opposed to crying
How much this is horrible but we are allowed to do this however we want
Laughing is OK

Follow Andrea @grievinglikeamother and show her support by shopping her store @thegriefcloset

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Holidays After Loss

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Fri, 17 Nov 2023 02:19:17 +0000

Brody's Dad, my husband Michael is back in the studio with me to discuss the upcoming holidays. This is the second holiday season after loss for us and we discuss how different they are from last year's. Michael and I are very different, even in our style of communicating. So this is helpful for those that want to maybe get a glimpse of what their partner may be thinking.

What else we discuss:

Triggers around the holidays
Relatives that are insensitive to your loss
Traditions that include your baby
Having a living child this year
Being envious of blissfully ignorant pregnancies
Him being hyper vigilant with my feelings around the holidays
Giving pregnant strangers advice
Having a less than perfect life as a parent vs others
And a lot more...

This is a candid interview between a married couple. It is our views and ours only. We do not mean to treat or diagnose anyone. We are simply sharing our thoughts and experiences to help you navigate life after baby death.

Follow Michael on Instagram: @lazar.michael

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Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Lauren + Austin

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Fri, 10 Nov 2023 15:56:49 +0000

Lauren tells us about her beautiful boy, Austin, who died at 38 weeks from a cord compression. Her way of accepting what has happened has brought her peace which she explains in this episode. She also discusses how poorly some of the medical professionals around her treated her when Austin was born and then what she DID about it. We've all had experiences with people having no compassion right after our loss and this is how Lauren handled it. She does it the right way and received positive responses from those she spoke to thus making change for all bereaved families to follow her. This is a great episode to listen to if you've ever wanted to approach your medical team about their behavior after your loss.

Lauren has so many great pieces of information on how she handled things in the weeks and months after Austin was born.

We cover:

How to approach medical staff with facts in order to give feedback on their professional behavior.
Workplace policy for bereavement leave
Fighting for policy
Phases after loss
Going day to day with loss
Getting answers and being at peace with them.

Please reach out to Lauren on Instagram at @lkdrizzy

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Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Chelsea + Elizabeth

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Mon, 30 Oct 2023 17:49:30 +0000

Chelsea talks about her daughter Elizabeth who died and was stillborn just 9 months ago. Chelsea and I had connected just after her death and to see what she has done with her grief, how she copes and Elizabeth's legacy is inspiring. She never thought she'd make it to the day where she gets to tell Elizabeth's story. But it wasn't without putting in the work to get to this point.

We talk about a lot of this:

Elizabeth's story
Finding answers
The question "How are you doing?"
Medical staff and how they treat you. (She had a wonderful staff)
Religious views after death
Seeking out therapies
Support Groups and committing to them
Owning how you feel about the death of your baby and not letting anyone tell you otherwise

To connect with Chelsea, find her on Instagram at @icarryher_heart

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I am not a doctor or a therapist. The views of my guests are not always reflective of my own. I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. This is my real experiences, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone. Always do your own research and make informed decisions!

For more REAL TALK about baby loss and grief, hit subscribe to be notified when another drops!

Instagram @thekatherinelazar

Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Crystal-Gayle + Damani

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 19 Oct 2023 18:48:32 +0000

Crystal-Gayle tells her story from where she lives, Jamaica, and the many efforts she has put in to get change to happen there. Her precious son, Damani, was born prematurely and died just a few short days after his birth. During her time in the hospital, Crystal-Gayle noticed just how horrible the bereavement standards were and how uneducated the staff was on how to treat her. She dives into what she is trying to get done in her country and how she needs help to do so. She is a one woman voice helping so many but needs help from others to amplify her efforts. She is a wonderful mother to her son Damani and you can hear her unending love for him when she tells his story.

To connect with her, find her on Instagram at @4damani

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Parenting Your Newborn After Loss

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 12 Oct 2023 20:09:20 +0000

HEADS UP: This episode speaks about having a living baby after loss. Sarah from episode 24 is back to chat with me about our experiences in this phase of loss life with a 4 month and 6 month old. This is uncharted territory for both of us and we have mutually felt that there is not much being said in the loss community about how challenging it is to have a living baby after loss. We want to tell you about what we've learned. While mine and Sarah's losses are very different, we share the same feelings about the trauma, joy, grief, challenges, and pain that occur when having a living baby after your first baby dies.

We navigated loss life after Brody and Nathanial died. Now we are navigating parenting their little siblings, Wolfy and Thomas.

This is NOT to scare or treat anyone. This is NOT complaining. We are also not speaking for everyone. This is us talking about our experiences in hopes we can help other mommas who are feeling the same way. Just shedding light on the normalcies having a living baby after loss include.

What we discuss:

The less than ideal way the baby after loss arrives
It's not anything like we imagined
We prepped for PAL but not for when the baby is here.
We have the same experiences as other living baby parents do except ours has a layer of trauma
Early induction after loss
Relationships with people who dropped off when our baby died but came back when we had a living one.
Breastfeeding, pumping, feeding, formula, pain, etc
Terror over joy
Guilt for not hyper-focusing on our baby that died.
The definition of a "good mother"
Out partners and what they are experiencing
Finding space to talk about our baby that died.
Parenting a dead child while raising a living one
We cover a lot of things...

Find Amy at @whenmybabydied and @totallythomaswilder

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Stillbirth Prevention & Advocacy

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Sun, 8 Oct 2023 11:32:09 +0000

Amanda from Episode 12 is back! She talks about her recent efforts in DC to create awareness around stillbirth prevention and making moves to stop it. With the organization, Measure the Placenta, she hopes to help make some change in our prenatal healthcare in the US. She is a wealth of knowledge on this subject and you will learn so much listening to her. This is for anyone that needs light shed on this subject to help others understand what stillbirth actually is and how we can try to stop it from happening in the future...

Here are some great links that we discussed:

Find Amanda's post about DC here! @orangeafmama

Measure The Placenta info

Info on the Maternal and Child Health Stillbirth Prevention Act

Info on Measure the Placenta: @measuretheplacenta

Dr Kliman information

This is a petition to let your members of Congress know why their continued support for both the Stillbirth Health Improvement and Education for Autumn Act (H.R. 5012/S. 2647) and the Maternal and Child Health Stillbirth Prevention Act (H.R. 4581/S. 2231) is crucial to each bills success AND to urge those, who have not supported them in the past, to do so. Link Here: PETITION

Placenta Pathology Findings

Surrogate Loss Mom

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 28 Sep 2023 18:56:04 +0000

Camila is a surrogate Loss Mom who experienced a full term stillbirth. In this episode we discuss her experiences with her surrogacy, the weight it put on her and her family and the preventable death of the baby that she was carrying. We talk about how her grief manifested, her relationship with the biological parents, and her calling to join advocacy and prevention efforts with PUSH for Empowered Pregnancy. As the Director of Communications, she has recently finished her time in DC advocating for changes in legislation to help put a stop to preventable stillbirth.

This is a very specific topic within an already very rare category. Please share this if you know someone who has had a similar experience as Camila.

Find Camila on IG: @surrogacy_loss_mama

To get involved: Pushpregnancy.org

Preventative measures: Countthekicks.org

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I am not a doctor or a therapist. The views of my guests are not always reflective of my own. I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone. Always do your own research and make informed decisions!

For more REAL TALK about baby loss and grief, hit subscribe to be notified when another drops!

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Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Follow me on Social Media:

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Andrea + Terra

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Fri, 22 Sep 2023 02:03:56 +0000

Andrea is the mother of 6 children. Her 5th baby, her beautiful daughter, Terra, died at 38 weeks in July of 2021. Terra's two vessel cord has not been to blame but Andrea wonders why there isn't more research on this. We discuss Andrea's experiences with loss & grief. She has since had another daughter after Terra and is coming up for air getting the help she needs. We talk very openly about the aftermath of death, the panic attacks, the fears, the inability to function and getting medications to assist with coping after your world comes crashing down. Death keeps going after you leave the hospital without your baby and we shed light in this very dark space....We also laugh a lot in this episode. This is how we roll now! :)

To shop Andrea's store, go to her IG @thegriefcloset

Her personal page is @grievinglikeamother and she'd love to hear from you.

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Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

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Audience Questions

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 14 Sep 2023 18:36:25 +0000

Y'all asked and I'm answering! I polled my IG audience to see what topics you wanted me to address. So it's just lil ole me on the mic giving you my perspective. Please note that I am not a professional, I'm just a loss mom who has had A LOT of conversations with professionals and other moms. Here to help!

What I talk about:

The months after the trenches
Trying to Conceive and seeing Negative tests
Pregnancy after loss and connecting with the baby
What was it like to hold the new baby after loss
Fear of loss
Guilt
Fear of other's judgment
Triggers Triggers Triggers
Age as a factor in pregnancy
and so much more.

Make sure to message me after and let me know what you think! I will be taking more questions next month to do this again!

Follow me on Instagram @thekatherinelazar

Facebook @thekatherinelazar

Website: katherinelazar.com

Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Kids Grief Support

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 7 Sep 2023 12:00:00 +0000

Jessica Correnti has been a Certified Child Life Specialist for 15+ years. Jessica's daughter, Maggie, was stillborn at 22 weeks nearly 7 years. She is the author of Forever Connected, a children’s book for bereaved siblings, and The ABCs of Grief, which will be released in Fall 2023. Jessica is the founder and owner of Kids Grief Support, a private practice that provides virtual and in-person sessions to grieving children and families across the globe through play, therapeutic activities, and emotional support.

We discuss so many things pertaining to parenting before stillbirth and after it. How children process it is explained and how we can navigate the conversations is broken down and simplified. Jessica, being a loss momma herself, provides invaluable insight on parenting after loss and opening the conversation about death and grief with young children.

We discuss:

Talking very factually to children about death
Looking for their grief coming out in behaviors
Kids using their imagination regarding their dead sibling
How kids process as they get older and how it changes
Outsiders opinions regarding your parenting a dead child decisions
Breaking the stigma in society about loss and grief
Simple ways to start the conversation about death
Creating something as the parent of a dead child.
IT gets SO good at the end...so much we cover!

Her IG handle: @kidsgriefsupport

Her book on Amazon: https://amzn.to/44ICNa3

Here is Forever Connected: https://amzn.to/44ICNa3

Her book recs: https://www.amazon.com/shop/kidsgriefsupport/list/2RRQI076UAM8R?ref_=aipsflist_aipsfkidsgriefsupport

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I am not a doctor or a therapist. The views of my guests are not always reflective of my own. I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. These are my real experiences, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone.

Always do your own research and make informed decisions!

For more REAL TALK about baby loss and grief, hit subscribe to be notified when another drops!

Instagram https: @thekatherinelazar

Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Follow me on Social Media:

Instagram and Facebook: @thekatherinelazar

Maria + Rylen

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 31 Aug 2023 13:00:00 +0000

Maria lost her first son Rylen James Laxer on October 12, 2022 due to an umbilical cord accident. Maria was 39 weeks pregnant & her world was completely shattered. She is doing the work in order to pick up the pieces.

The day Maria came home from the hospital without Rylen, she put on a bracelet with his name & felt instantly more connected with him. From that moment on, she designed jewelry that reminded her of her son & started @shoprylenjames to provide the same feeling to other mamas throughout the world. The shop is beautiful and helps so many mommas with broken hearts. Show your support and purchase some jewelry for yourself of a bereaved momma like Maria.

Maria and I connected right after Rylen's stillbirth. She wanted some insight on how to navigate this. So, seeing how far she has come in her grief makes me truly proud of these incredible mommas whose hearts are so big even though they are completely broken.

You will hear two instagram friends chatting about all things life after loss. What we talk about:

Different Phases of loss
Trying to conceive after loss
Relationships and how they change
Passing the torch to others after us
Connecting with loss mommas and how it helps
Cutting people off
Creating purpose from your pain
Her cute little jewelry shop in honor of Rylen
"Choosing" to be happy
Putting in the work to making life worth living again
And so much more!

Shop! @shoprylenjames

Connect with Maria on IG: @mimosaswithmaria

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Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Follow me on Social Media:

Instagram and Facebook: @thekatherinelazar

Holly + Harry

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Fri, 25 Aug 2023 23:39:06 +0000

Holly is a mother of 4 children: her 3 girls and her son Harry, who was born still on January 31, 2023. Holly is unapologetically navigating this loss life how she wants to just 8 months after his death. She has put in the work to make the best of the new life she is stuck with now, one where she can be happy and honor her son. She is a ball of positive energy, and I think it radiates through the episode. She is a working mom, new dog mom, Reality TV aficionado and self proclaimed "Culturista". While navigating life after loss, She has learned how to live in the now, enjoy the moments and still have her son close to her heart.

For those that are looking for a sign to make the best out of this nightmare, this is it.

What we talk about:

Doing the work it takes to get on a healing path.
Being HBIC (Head Bitch in Charge)
Navigating relationships after loss
How we have to choose to be happy (as cliche as that is)
Changing the way our brains work through therapy
Light at the end of the tunnel
Still being ourselves
Different phases of grief and life after loss
And so much more!

Follow Holly on her Personal IG: Hollygirl8

And Harry's page at Harry’s “Diary” IG: harrys_h0use

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Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Follow me on Social Media:

Instagram and Facebook: @thekatherinelazar

Kelly + Owen

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 17 Aug 2023 16:27:32 +0000

Kelly is a mom to 2 living children and her son Owen, who died in January 2021 at 38 weeks after a placental abruption. To honor Owen, Kelly created #OwensLight to share his story and support her initiative to create and donate birthday cake kits to celebrate his birthday. The support group, SHARE has been instrumental in her grief journey and pregnancy after loss. She is currently working with other parents in her community to plan a walk during Pregnancy And Infant Loss (PAIL) Awareness month.

Kelly talks about her traumatic birth, her grief with living children, and how she has continued to parent Owen from earth.

If you'd like to reach out to her, find her on instagram @Morankn11

Her walk in Naperville, IL linked here: https://eehealth.ejoinme.org/2023ShareWalk

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Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Sarah + Jasmine

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 10 Aug 2023 15:09:04 +0000

Sarah is behind the rainbow skirt that you may have seen on social media, Project Finding Your Rainbow. She is a mother to three living children and a daughter, Jasmine, who died before she was born in 2018. This skirt has been worn by almost 300 loss mommas to celebrate their rainbow babies. The community she has created has helped so many.

We also touch on the subject of gender disappointment and the challenges of pregnancy after loss. Sarah had a tough battle with infertility and hopes to shed light on this topic, something we discuss as well.

Sarah now works to help other loss parents through her Journey for Jasmine pages, Project Finding Your Rainbow, and the Finding Hope After Loss Podcast.

Where you can find her:

www.journeyforjasmine.com

anchor.fm/findinghopeafterloss

instagram.com/findinghopeafterloss

facebook.com/findinghopeafterloss

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Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Follow me on Social Media:

Instagram and Facebook: @thekatherinelazar

Alissa + Anna

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Wed, 26 Jul 2023 01:59:38 +0000

Alissa lost her first daughter, Anna, in 2018 to a placental abruption that almost took her life too. She talks about her experiences not only losing her daughter but also almost losing her own life. The changes that happened after and the magnitude of the experiences have shaped her in every way.

We discuss:

Parenting after loss
Kind nurses that are angels
The impact of our experiences on our partners
Almost losing your own life after stillbirth
The death of your baby and what that looks like through the years
Having a NICU rainbow baby
Keeping sense of humor
Finding light after loss

You can follow her at @lissables on instagram, as well as @a.missing.stitch where she honors the names of those missing from our families.

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Instagram https: @thekatherinelazar

Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Charmell + Harper

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Sat, 15 Jul 2023 18:12:44 +0000

Charmell is an IVF Warrior whose first child, Harper, died and was stillborn just a few months ago. I found Charmell's the way she speaks of her loss and copes inspiring. She loves to use her life and faith to motivate women all over the world with what she called Moments with Mell. Moments with Mell is just a transparent, sneak peak into her everyday life with hopes of encouraging others. Charmell and her Husband, Martin, have also created the Harper Grace Foundation to award scholarships to deserving girls of color; that is how they parent Harper.

She has also created a way to help others daily. If you’re looking for empowerment and encouragement, checkout her book entitled “I Am: A 30 Day Guide for Devine Empowerment” . Available on Amazon.

Connect with Charmell on her Socials:

IG: moments_with_mell.p

FB: Moments with Mell P

TikTok: @iammellp

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Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Follow me on Social Media:

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Nicole + Cameron

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Sun, 9 Jul 2023 19:57:55 +0000

Nicole is the momma of two. A 3 year old son on Earth and her daughter, Cameron, in heaven. An unrecognized virus spread throughout older son’s daycare class a week prior to Cameron’s birth. She was born via C-section at 35+2 but was not showing signs of sickness. Cameron was admitted to NICU for monitoring. She lived for 29 days and passed from Enterovirus.

Nicole and her husband have started "Planting Memories", memorial tree planting, small business, for those people grieving the loss of a loved one by planting a tree in their honor.

Nicole is a the definition of badass loss momma, and you can hear in her voice how much she loves her babies. Her spirit, energy and grief vibe I dig very much and I hope you can feel it radiate through wherever you are listening. It's mommas like this that keep me going and I hope she can provide some insight on how to navigate this horrible loss life.

Find her on IG https://www.instagram.com/nikuhns614/

Support her small business: https://plantingmemoriesnc.com/

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I am not a doctor or a therapist. I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. This is my real life, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone.

For more REAL TALK about baby loss and grief, hit subscribe to be notified when another drops!

Instagram https: @thekatherinelazar

Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Follow me on Social Media:

Instagram and Facebook: @thekatherinelazar

Emily + Oliver

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 29 Jun 2023 13:00:00 +0000

Emily's first and only child Oliver died and was stillborn just 6 months ago at the time of this recording. The cause is still unknown. While she finds peace in not knowing, she does want to investigate further as she hopefully navigates pregnancy after loss in the near future.

Emily talks about what happened, the casualness of her care, knowing now what we didn't know then, and how she is prepping to try to have a living child someday.

She has a blog and Instagram @plannedandplanted that has helped her during her grief. She has been open with her followers about Oliver and her journey and has found that they have been receptive. She had to let her fear of being open about her grief journey go. Those that don't like it can unfollow. This unapologetic way of doing it works for her and I'm here for it!

Her perspective is one that I feel is simplified in a way that could help others when they are trying to navigate the early months after stillbirth.

Find her at @plannedandplanted and feel free to reach out!

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Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Follow me on Social Media:

Instagram and Facebook: @thekatherinelazar

Baby Weight & Body Image After Loss

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 22 Jun 2023 21:47:58 +0000

Kelsey, Patrick's Momma from Episode 2, is back to discuss a topic that is near and dear to both of us: Baby weight and body image after loss. This is a taboo subject where so many feel like, after the stillbirth of their baby, they aren't allowed to be uncomfortable in their skin, to see someone different in the mirror, to have more weight and no baby. But we're here to smash the stigma that it's superficial or unimportant. It's part of OUR journey so we hope it can help those that struggle with this.

We are still mothers. Mothers who struggle with this. Just like those with living babies. It's time we normalize it!

Kelsey is a former gymnast and has been hyper focused on her physique her entire life. Me as a pro dancer and fitness professional, has also focused and pretty much identified with my body looking a certain way for success. We unpack all the things we have felt before, during and after pregnancy. It's uncomfortable, it's sad, there are regrets, and things we wish we could do over, but it's real and if it is reality for us, it probably is for you too.

Listen to us discuss it ALL.

Find Kelsey on IG at @Kelsey.Heslin

And ME! at @thekatherinelazar

Fitness reference: @loved_momma_fitness

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I am not a doctor or a therapist. I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. Not all of my guests opinions reflect my own. Do your own research and always make your own informed decisions. This is my real life, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone.

Instagram https: @thekatherinelazar

Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Follow me on Social Media:

Instagram and Facebook: @thekatherinelazar

Amy + Carter

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 15 Jun 2023 20:18:42 +0000

Amy and I connected on Instagram shortly after her first and only child, Carter, was stillborn in July 2022. She is a total grief vibe as she still laughs, experiences joy and deals with her grief and coping in a way that is her own. Never receiving answers as to what happened to Carter, she has entered into pregnancy after loss. She has decided to relinquish control in some way and trust that things will work out.

We talk about

Her story
Grief after stillbirth
Getting answers
Her grief vibe
Ok to laugh and experience life again
Denying the autopsy
Respecting partners' wishes
Her doctors being on top of this new pregnancy
Having a looming feeling but not with her rainbow
How the techs handle ultrasounds/not reading charts
Sharing information about our experiences and having people not think it could happen to them
Drinking during pregnancy
Believing that this could actually happen and we end up with a living baby
Deciding that it's ok to not be ok, BUT it's also ok to be ok.
Getting up from the ground and not going back down.
Digging ourselves out of the trenches
And so much more...

Hit up Amy on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/amyycampisi/

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I am not a doctor or a therapist. I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. This is my real life, and I'm putting it out there to help you feel less alone. Not all views or opinions of my guests are my own. Always do your own research and make your own informed decisions!

For more REAL TALK about baby loss and grief, hit subscribe

Follow me on Instagram https: @thekatherinelazar

Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Follow me on Social Media:

Instagram and Facebook: @thekatherinelazar

Nikki + Skylar

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 1 Jun 2023 12:00:00 +0000

This episode is incredible. Nikki talks to me about her beautiful baby Skye who died from a severe and rare disorder called Meckel-Gruber Syndrome. It is only passed to the baby if both parents are carriers. Upon hearing this news, Nikky and her husband decided not to have biological children moving forward, as the chances are high that it will happen again. Nikky talks about her journey through her pregnancy, all of the fear and heartbreak but also the love and beauty for her daughter that was so strong. She discusses their decisions after Skye's death and what that means for them moving forward as foster parents to children needing love and support.

Nikki also discusses her relationship with God and how to redefine what it means when we hear "God is good" The last 30 minutes of this episode are everything if you are searching to strengthen your relationship with your faith after loss. She puts it so simply and so eloquently, you have got to listen to it.

To message Nikki, find her on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/nikki.hawk/

The Book we Discussed: A Grace Disguised

**NOTE: this is always an open platform from the viewpoint of the guest and does not always reflect my beliefs. As always do your own research & use your own judgement on what's best for you. I am not a doctor or a therapist. I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. This is my real life, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone. ***

For more REAL TALK about pregnancy loss, stillbirth and grief, hit follow!

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Facebook: @thekatherinelazar

Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Dr Heather Florescue, OBGYN

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 25 May 2023 12:00:00 +0000

Dr Heather Florescue is an OBGYN in Rochester, NY and works at Women’s Gynecology and Childbirth Associates. Her passion is caring for families who experience pregnancy loss and stillbirth awareness and prevention.

Dr Florescue is championing for major change in the prevention of stillbirth and she alone seems to be the only one in her field. I am hopeful after hearing her speak, others will want to step forward and join her in the fight to end preventable stillbirth as well as help provide better bereavement and grief support to families as they navigate pregnancy after loss.

We cover:

What is wrong with our current system and why
How the US is behind in any standard protocols for prenatal
Grief support for mothers after stillbirth
Making change to a system that doesn't want to be changed
The lack of motivation for other medical professionals to make a difference in stillbirth
Her motivation for why she wants to help lead this mission
Speaking at the Stillbirth Convention

She can be reached via email is hflorescue@gmail.com but I actually like Instagram better. I don’t provide individual consults or advice.

Her IG Handle: @drflorescueobgyn

PUSH Pregnancy: https://www.pushpregnancy.org/about

For more REAL TALK about pregnancy loss, stillbirth and grief, hit follow!

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Facebook: @thekatherinelazar

Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Liz, Kelsey + Sarah are BACK!

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 18 May 2023 13:00:00 +0000

The ladies from the 1st three episodes of At a Total Loss are back to tackle some popular topics regarding loss. If you didn't listen to their first episodes, Liz is Harrisons mom who was born over a year and a half ago. Kelsey is Patricks momma who was born still 4 years ago, and Sarah is the other Brody's momma who was stillborn 3.5 years ago. They all have gone on to have "rainbow" babies and they give their insight as to what life looks like since they last recorded almost one year ago.

What we cover:

Grief in the past year
Being more comfortable with their grief
Being able to mentor others is therapeutic
Allowed to laugh again
No Playbook but we can be a guide
Validating our loss & grief
Parenting kids after loss
The term Rainbow Baby
The pressure on rainbows to fix us
Ready to TTC
Having a PAL pal
Baby's reincarnated spirits?
Partners and their grief
And omg we talk about it ALL...

Hit up each of them on instagram!

Liz: @lizmyers19

Kelsey: @kelsey.heslin

Sarah: @sarah_emmert

And ME:@thekatherinelazar

For more REAL TALK about pregnancy loss, stillbirth and grief, hit follow!

Instagram @thekatherinelazar

Facebook: @thekatherinelazar

Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Sydney + Leighton

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 11 May 2023 08:00:00 +0000

Sydney & I met up here in Atlanta to talk about her beautiful first born child, Leighton, who died at 39 weeks from a 4x nuchal cord on October 17, 2022. This is an extremely rare event, and unlike a lot of stories on this podcast, was not preventable.

Sydney opens up about how this has altered her whole world and the choices she's had to make to keep moving forward. We are friends here in Atlanta, and I can tell you Sydney is such a light in such a dark dark reality. Her faith in God is inspiring & how she handles her grief with such grace is truly admirable. I felt the world needed to hear her story.

What we discuss:

Leighton's death & birth
Things that happened in the hospital
How to continue your faith
Her experience "in the trenches"
The choice she made to keep going
How she handles situations that make her anxious
Her relationship with her husband
What she is battling now 6 months later
So much more.

Sydney hopes to help as many mommas as she can. Feel free to connect with her on IG at @sydandlexphoto

Shop her store & help support! @shopleightonbrooke

For more REAL TALK about pregnancy loss, stillbirth and grief, hit follow!

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Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

My Story

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Fri, 5 May 2023 18:29:22 +0000

Welp, y'all asked for it, so I'm givin it to ya! I've had some requests to tell my story, all the way back to my dancin days & what exactly happened to Brody. You could probably piece it all together on my IG but no one has time for that. So here is my story in my own words, the beginning of it at least. In this episode, I talk about how we got here. I laugh at myself, I cry, I curse, I rant, I chuckled again, I cheerlead. There's a lot going on but it will give you some insight on my background, how we got to this podcast, & my life as the mother of sweet Brody.

What I cover:

My history, where I'm from, family life
Being a dancer
How I got into hosting
My career in fitness
My career on camera
Meeting Michael
My Pregnancy with Brody
What happened to him
His delivery & the trauma that ensued after
Recovering
Therapies I've done
Coping in the early days of loss
Starting this podcast
And a lot in between!

I hope this helps you guys see where I'm coming from, my experiences with pregnancy & stillbirth, to piece together what happened to Brody, & where I want to go from here in honoring his memory.

I do this for him, I do this for you, i do this for your babies.

Hit me up on instagram to say hi!

Website:

Dr Kliman's info: EPV: Estimated Placental Volume

Pregnancy loss: Pregnancy Losses

Home page: Reproductive and Placental Research Unit

Organization: Measure the Placenta

Email: harvey.kliman@yale.edu

** As always do your own research & use your own judgement on what's best for you. I am not a doctor or a therapist. I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. This is my real life, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone. **

For more REAL TALK about pregnancy loss, stillbirth and grief, hit follow!

Instagram https: @thekatherinelazar

Facebook: @thekatherinelazar

WATCH IT HERE: Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

The Loss Life: Katherine + Mim

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 27 Apr 2023 04:05:00 +0000

Mim, Lenny & Bhai's mom, is back to catch up on what has happened since she came on Episode 18. Since then she has raised awareness about baby loss by cycling the length of New Zealand with her husband Roy, shot a film that she is submitting to all the major festivals, and started a training program for health care providers that will help improve the bereavement care of parents after their baby dies.

Mim & I talk all the time so you will hear some weird banter & a lot of laughing. Which is OK TO DO! Our grief vibe matches up and she has been a big part in getting through these last few months.

Listen to her insight on facing her grief head on, meeting other loss parents in the middle of no where, and how she hopes to help change the way healthcare workers treat bereaved parents.

Find her on IG at @lennyslegacy https://www.instagram.com/lennyslegacy/

Website for Lenny's Legacy: https://lennyslegacy.co.uk/

And stay tuned for info on when the film will be out!

For more REAL TALK about pregnancy loss, stillbirth and grief, hit follow!

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Facebook: @thekatherinelazar

Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Nathalie + A'Mya

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 20 Apr 2023 04:05:00 +0000

Nathalie is a mother of twins, one here on earth and to the other, A'mya who died just days after birth 11.5 years ago. Since then, Nathalie has parented both of them the best she can while learning about her own grief. She is a holistic counsellor and coach as well as a writer and published author of multiple grief resource books and the founder of the Grieving Parents Support Network.

This conversation is truly so healing. We cover what it's like to carry twins knowing one may not make it, what it's been like to parent one without her sister, and how she is a source of hope for those that she coaches by shining a light on what this life is about after loss.

We discuss:

Grief as front & center at first
How it stays but it isn't as big as in the beginning
Healing is a process and not an end point. We don't ever say we're "healed"
How to not lose hope with the potential of losing hope
Survivors guilt with twins
Teaching her daughter about her sister & letting her find her own way of grieving
Understanding our grief
Being OK with always having just plan B, living life with grief
Relationships during and after loss
Who we are before will dictate how we handle loss
And so much more!!

Find Nathalie on her website at https://nathaliehimmelrich.com/

Find her books here: https://nathaliehimmelrich.com/my-books/

The grieving parents network: https://grievingparents.net/

You can also find her on Instagram https://www.instagram.com/mymissbliss/

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Dealing with Triggers

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 13 Apr 2023 04:05:00 +0000

THIS episode is SO good, we NEED this convo ASAP. Ashton from Episode 29 is back to talk about TRIGGERS & what it means to manage them. She is a Loss Momma as well as a certified transformational life coach and mentor for those looking for guidance in creating their version of success and fulfillment.

This episode is excellent for those trying to navigate communication, relationships, going back into the world after loss, deciphering how to heal, & even for those that support them to try to understand what is happening. LISTEN TO IT AND TAKE NOTES.

We talk about:

Self Management
Self Awareness
Social Awareness
What is a trigger & what does it do?
How you feel vs how you react
Controlling others, you can't!
Healthy communication
Education
Emotional Intelligence
Steps & strategies to deal with triggers
PAL activators that are crippling
Basic Techniques that WORK
Fear of Triggers
OMG we talk about SO MANY THINGS...

This episode is so good I can't handle it.

If you'd like a complimentary session with Ashton find her on Instagram @ashtoncantou & her link in her bio

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The Loss Life: Katherine + Sarah

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 6 Apr 2023 13:43:51 +0000

I'm changing it up! This episode will not be centered around loss but more so about life after loss. Sarah from Episode 3 joins me to discuss what the Loss Life looks like! Things are different now, but that doesn't mean we still can't enjoy things, seek out fun, & laugh a lot. Sarah is the perfect example of this being 3 years out from losing her son. Death of our babies alters us, we are a different breed, so Sarah and I discuss what that looks like moving forward in our losses.

Sarah and I are friends here in Atlanta, we run with a small Loss Mom group, we have cocktails, laughs, we even have the same OB, all while we bring our boys with us.

So if you want to know what life kinda could look like years after your loss, here's a not great portrayal but it's probably entertaining af. LOL.

What we talk about:

REALITY TV, it's our thing, we love it, who cares
Specifically Vanderpump Rules & the Scandoval!!!
How watching reality TV has helped in our coping & makes us feel comfortable after loss
Getting hooked to these story lines because it's something out of our reality.
Our emotional capacity to handle griefy things in movies & TV
Analyzing characters as we watch based on our traumas
Drinking and grief
Stillbirth and infant death now being written into story lines a lot more or are we just more aware?
Needing Loss Moms to run businesses around us so that we can go to them cuz they get it.
Serial killers or random death tragedies?
And so much more sh*t lol

Find Sarah on IG at @sarah_emmert

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Jennifer: Accelerated Resolution Therapy

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 30 Mar 2023 04:05:00 +0000

Jennifer Is a Licensed Marriage and Family Therapist with over 15 years of experience who specializes in treating PTSD/trauma, addiction and couples counseling. She is certified in Accelerated Resolution Therapy (ART) which is an evidenced based therapy to treat past trauma. ART provides immediate relief of past trauma by reducing negative images, sensations and symptoms allowing you to start healing.

I personally sought out Jennifer's help here in Atlanta when my OB gave me her information to try to help with my trauma. It was life changing. Here, Jennifer breaks down what it means to get actual good help in therapy. She also breaks down how this therapy works & what to expect.

We have to give ourselves permission to feel better. To try to heal from our trauma & be able to cope with the pain that severe loss brings. I open up about my own personal journey in this episode.

Jennifer's website: Truenorththerapyga.com

Helpful news article: Psychology today

Jennifer can be reached by phone or email: 678-469-0505 or Truenorththerapy2020@gmail.com

For more REAL TALK about pregnancy loss, stillbirth and grief, hit follow!

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Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

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Rebekah + Faith + Asher

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 23 Mar 2023 14:04:31 +0000

Raised Jewish, Bekah is the mother of 3 children in Heaven & 3 earth-side. After discovering her first baby, Faith, had a life-limiting diagnosis at 20 weeks, she turned to God for the first time in her life and discovered a spiritual depth & connection that eventually led her to her Christian faith. Rebekah goes on to suffer a miscarriage as well as the death and stillbirth of her son Asher. She now shares openly about her journey in hopes to help others going through a difficult loss. Her transparency on both the joy & the grief side are so appreciated and her perspective on loss, grief, God, hope & love are inspiring.

I think perception is everything in this space. And some of us do lose our faith whether briefly or permanently during our darkest times. The truth is, some of us find our way back as we surrender to our pain and ask God for help. Here is a story of 3 losses. Something we don't hear often. But how she continues to move forward is something that I believe will benefit many people.

You can find Rebekah on IG at @the.beautyfromashes or on her YouTube Channel - The Beauty from Ashes

For more REAL TALK about pregnancy loss, stillbirth and grief, hit follow!

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Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

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Marlie: Obstetric Negligence Attorney

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 16 Mar 2023 14:59:18 +0000

Marlie Willer is an experienced trial lawyer that focuses her practice on medical malpractice, with a particular emphasis in obstetric negligence. Throughout her career, she has advocated for children and families in over 16 states across the country. Marlie prides herself in being a strong advocate for families and children that have suffered birth trauma who are often left in the dark and sent home without any explanation other than – well these things happen.

There is our physical and emotional side of baby death, then there's the legal side. I wanted to include this perspective to all of us who have thought about digging into what happened to our babies and who is at fault. Marlie goes over all the legal aspects of opening a case as well as the emotional toll that it takes on parents. She is open and honest about her experience and her compassion for suffering parents is apparent in the hard work she does for the Loss Community.

Disclaimer: The information in this podcast episode is provided for general informational purposes only. The information contained in this episode does not constitute legal advice. No listener of this episode should act or refrain from acting on the basis of any information included in this episode without seeking the appropriate legal advice on the particular circumstances at issue from a lawyer licensed in the recipient’s state, country or other appropriate licensing jurisdiction.

To contact Marlie: Website lirowillerlaw.com, telephone number 617-844-6841, and instagram handle @birthinjurylaw. Consults can be arranged through any of those ways.

***NOTE: this is always an open platform from the viewpoint of the guest and does not always reflect my beliefs. As always do your own research & use your own judgement on what's best for you. I am not a doctor or a therapist. I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. This is my real life, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone. ***

For more REAL TALK about pregnancy loss, stillbirth and grief, hit follow!

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Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

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Laura + Lainey Part 2

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 9 Mar 2023 20:11:42 +0000

This is PART 2 of Episode 33 with Laura & Lainey Mae. In this second part, Laura tells us about the death of her baby at just 2 months old. She also dives into candidly what she thinks could have happened to Lainey and how asking questions surrounding the death of her baby has been challenging and down right scary. Something seems off and as she starts to investigate what happened, she doesn't like what she is putting together.

She just didn't know what she knows now. Why are we in this position after our babies die? Why does no one but us want answers? In her pursuit of finding out what happened to her daughter, Laura is also trying to establish a life & a future where she can not just survive this pain but LIVE despite of it.

This episode may be tough to listen to so please be aware. However, do not shy away from it because of fear or sadness. There are things that need to be heard and listened to.

Find Laura on Instagram at @lauralazas

For more REAL TALK about pregnancy loss, stillbirth and grief, hit follow!

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Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

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Laura + Lainey Part 1

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 2 Mar 2023 05:05:00 +0000

In Part 1 of a 2 part Episode, Laura talks with me about precious Lainey Mae, who died at just 2 months old. Laura is a single, Christian mother who is very open about her story & how challenging this has been to do alone even with such an incredible family as her support system. She has been such a light and a source of laughter, hope, & goodness for me and I wanted her to share her entire story.

We all have such different stories but we all share so many commonalities when it comes to out living our babies. You will hear her message of beauty, faith, inspiration, as well as anger, rage, and regret.

What we also talk about:

Dealing with high blood pressure that leads to emergency induction
Being pregnant with someone close to you
Looking back on the joyous moments is so painful
Did our babies know they would die?
Mediums
Dreams
Believing in Heaven & staying close to God
People afraid of death.
So much more

Find Laura on Instagram at @lauralazas

For more REAL TALK about pregnancy loss, stillbirth and grief, hit follow!

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Adelying + Sage

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 23 Feb 2023 15:56:44 +0000

Adeyling talks with me about her beautiful son Sage, who died from a life limiting illness, Thanatophoric Dysplasia, that they discovered at just 20 weeks. She has since had another boy, Skye, and has been growing her candle company Sage & Sara. We talk about loss, pregnancy after loss, building a business from the inspiration we find after loss, and all things in between.

Adeyling's company gives back to non-profits and gives her the chance to continuously talk about Sage and bring awareness to baby loss to people all over. She is a support system to other Loss Moms and uses her marketing skills, her journalism background, and her calling to dig into the loss space to help others.

What we discuss:

Fear during PAL

Finding out about Life Limiting Diagnoses early on & choosing to carry
Having a good doctor you trust
Teaching our living kids about their sibling
Hoping for miracles
Applying who we are to what we are now
Using our skillsets for different audiences
Diving into the loss community
Living a purpose filled life & finding something to help us survive
So much more...

Find Adeyling on IG at @sageandsara

Website: sageandsaracandles.com

For more REAL TALK about pregnancy loss, stillbirth and grief, hit follow!

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Facebook: @thekatherinelazar

WATCH IT HERE: Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

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Dr Harvey Kliman

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 16 Feb 2023 15:12:40 +0000

I talk with Dr Harvey Kliman about his research and medical opinion when it comes to the placenta, pregnancy loss/stillbirth, & reoccurring pregnancies. He is a research Scientist in the Department of Obstetrics, Gynecology, and Reproductive Sciences at the Yale University of Medicine and the Director of the Reproductive and Placental Research Unit with the following Research Interests: Pregnancy Complications and losses, Autistic Disorder, Endometrium, and Infertility.

Dr Kliman is the one who gave me some answers around Brody's death. He shed some light on what could have happened & how we prevent it from happening again. Without his placenta pathology report, I would still be going off of what my OB said, "he was perfect, this was freak, & it won't happen again." False.

Here's what we discuss:

His background and how he got here
Developing the Estimated Placenta Volume measurements
Pushback from doctors
Causes of stillbirth
Causes of a small placenta
How to monitor if your placenta is small
How do approach doctors about EPV
C***d & the placenta
And so much more...

Important info from Dr Harvey Kliman:

EPV: Estimated Placental Volume

Pregnancy loss: Pregnancy Losses

Home page: Reproductive and Placental Research Unit

Organization: Measure the Placenta

Email: harvey.kliman@yale.edu

This is an episode for those who are curious about the placenta, who want to find answers, who also want to learn about other things outside of a small placenta, & to hear how we can prevent this from happening again in subsequent pregnancies.

For more REAL TALK about pregnancy loss, stillbirth and grief, hit follow!

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WATCH IT HERE: Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

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Katherine + Liz talk PAL

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 9 Feb 2023 05:05:00 +0000

Liz is BACK (on her "comeback tour" she says LOL) to discuss pregnancy after loss! Last time she was with us for Episode #1, we discussed life after the death of her son Harrison. Since then she has had her "rainbow baby", Abigail, and is here to discuss how hard PAL was for her.

At the time of this recording, I am 15 weeks pregnant so diving into this world of trying to have a living baby after full term death and stillbirth of your first child has been helpful for me. Maybe it can help you! We are in this together, after all...

We talk about:

*Trying to Conceive and how not glamorous it is

*Pregnancy after loss depression & anxiety

*"Gender disappointment" & how common it is for Loss Parents

*SIDS & living in fear

*Being able to leave her baby easily now

*Statistics saying that we have great odds in our favor

*The mental and emotional challenges PAL brings

*Being treated like a "normal" parent and how it sucks

*Infertility

*Hormones after it

*What life would have been like if our babies didn't die

*And all things pregnancy loss, life after stillbirth, grief, & PAL...

Liz wants to hear from YOU if you have had 2 babies or more after loss. Find her on IG at @lizmeyers19

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I am not a doctor or a therapist. I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. This is my real life, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone.

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Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

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Ashton + Sage

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 2 Feb 2023 05:05:00 +0000

Ashton and I connect to talk about her beautiful daughter Sage who died at full term due to a cord accident. Ashton is no stranger to heartbreak & struggles & she opens up about her first miscarriage that set the foundation for how she would go on to cope with the death of Sage. This conversation has so many nuggets of wisdom, insight, advice & hopeful examples of forward movement. What you're hearing is 2 people openly & honestly discussing their experiences with tragedy & trauma while putting in tons of hard work in order to live a life of purpose where grief & gratitude coexist. REAL TALK.

Ashton is a certified transformational life coach and mentor for impact driven entrepreneurs and high performers. She will help you go from surviving to thriving. Her mission is to support you in creating your version of success and fulfillment.

You can find her on IG at https://www.instagram.com/ashtoncantou/

Check out here website: https://www.ashtoncantou.com/

Her blog: https://www.ashtoncantou.com/blog

https://www.ashtoncantou.com/copy-of-confidence-catalyst-2

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I am not a doctor or a therapist. I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. This is my real life, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone.

For more REAL TALK about baby loss and grief follow me!...

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Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

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https://www.northsidepnl.com/

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Sydney + Adam

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 26 Jan 2023 05:05:00 +0000

My girl Sydney and I discuss her life after the death of her first son Adam on Valentine's Day 2021. Her story is open and very honest, personally what I dig most about her. She talks about how much blame she has on her Doctors and, sadly, on herself & how she coped with that. We go into pregnancy after loss and what that was like giving birth to her rainbow baby. She is super honest about gender disappointment and processing the opposite sex of her baby that died...And then we start talking about all the other kinds of stuff! Mediums, and spirit babies, and signs from our children, and all the cool stuff that comforts us. Check this one out and have an open mind and an open heart...

To connect with Sydney, find her on IG @Sydney.mcclain

Book we discuss: Spirit Babies

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I am not a doctor or a therapist. I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. This is my real life, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone.

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Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

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Katherine + Brody's Dad

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Fri, 20 Jan 2023 02:00:00 +0000

I sit down with my husband, Brody's father, Michael to discuss Brody's 1st Birthday and what this year has been like. He is very open and candid with his experiences with grief, coping, and dealing with me. We go IN on the dynamics between Loss Parents and how we are so different.

Michael is open to discussing any and all things about loss with other Loss Dads. You can find him on IG @lazar.michael

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I am not a doctor or a therapist. I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. This is my real life, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone.

For more REAL TALK about baby loss and grief, hit subscribe to be notified when another video drops!

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Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Ad: Scout & Cellar Clean Crafted Wine

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

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Katie + Makenna

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Fri, 13 Jan 2023 00:04:41 +0000

Katie and I talk about her beautiful daughter Makenna, who was born early and lived for 4 days in the NICU. Katie discusses very openly her experiences with her birth and the days to follow. She is feisty as hell, and I love how open she is about her grief and the ways she honors Makenna.

We talk a lot in this podcast. Everything from the love for our babies, to poor treatment from doctors, to grief and even fake online Loss Moms (yes that's a thing)...

Words will never be enough to explain the love I have for my daughter. Makenna dying didn't stop me from being her mom and loving her just as any other parent would love their child. She is my light.

Katie created Rainbows for Makenna. A non-profit that provides comfort boxes for parents suffering loss. You can shop here: https://www.rainbowsformakenna.com/

And find Katie on IG: https://www.instagram.com/rainbowsformakenna/

NOTE: These are MY thoughts, experiences and opinions. By no means am I telling anyone what to do, what's right or wrong, or how to handle grief or trauma. I am not a doctor or a therapist. Im just a loss mom giving you a front row seat as to what I've experienced.

This is my real life, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone.

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Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Website: https://katherinelazar.com/

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

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Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

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Ally + Noelle

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 5 Jan 2023 22:09:21 +0000

Ally learned of her daughter Noelle's life limiting diagnosis, Ebstein's Anomaly, during a follow up anatomy scan. Ally discusses what it was like to live with hope & fear while navigating a pregnancy with so much unknown. Although she only lived 62 minutes on Earth, Noelle's memory lives on in her parent's lives and heart. Ally now uses her spare time to promote Noelle's legacy and advocate and spread awareness to neonatal death, and Congenital Heart Defect (CHD) Awareness.

Ally is a light in a very dark place & she chooses to tell her daughter's story to help others suffering the same situation.

Below are some links that are helpful and relevant to what we talked about during the podcast:

Ebstein’s Anomaly: https://www.cincinnatichildrens.org/health/e/ebstein

https://www.ahajournals.org/doi/10.1161/JAHA.120.016684

https://academic.oup.com/ejcts/article/45/3/549/441522

https://www.ahajournals.org/doi/10.1161/CIRCULATIONAHA.115.015839

Comfort care Birth Planning: https://www.perinatalhospice.org/birth-planning

Little Angel Gowns: https://www.facebook.com/littleangelgowns/

Phoenix Children’s Hospital: https://www.phoenixchildrens.org/centers-programs/center-heart-care

Ronald McDonald House: https://rmhc.org

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NOTE: These are MY thoughts, experiences and opinions. By no means am I telling anyone what to do, what's right or wrong, or how to handle grief or trauma.

This is my real life, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone.

For more REAL TALK about baby loss and grief, hit subscribe to be notified when another video drops!

Instagram https: @thekatherinelazar

Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Ad: Scout & Cellar Clean Crafted Wine

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

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Sarah + Nathanial

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 29 Dec 2022 15:00:00 +0000

Sarah talks with me about her first born son, Nathaniel, who she and her wife Amy conceived through IVF. His precious life ended traumatically with severe early-onset preeclampsia, placental abruption, emergency C-section, a brief NICU stay and death within his mothers’ arms. Sarah took to grieving while trying to find out what happened, and planning for future pregnancy like a full-time job. In the midst of the uncertainty, she found resources that helped answer critical questions. In honor of her son, she created whenmybabydied.com which aims to offer families a centralized resource hub of information and answers for the question no parent ever thought they’d have to find. Sarah and Amy, in the midst of their grief, have entered into pregnancy after loss, as Sarah is now due with Nathanials sibling. This comes with many more challenges that we discuss as well.

Here are some great resources that we discuss:

ACOG research:

· 5 attached articles

· Aspirin for Evidence-Based Preeclampsia Prevention trial: influence of compliance on beneficial effect of aspirin in prevention of preterm preeclampsia: https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/28888591/

· Prevention of preeclampsia with aspirin https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/32835720/

Harvey Kliman: Reproductive and Placental Research Unit: https://medicine.yale.edu/obgyn/kliman/placenta/pregnancyloss/

Measure the Placenta: https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

Preeclampsia Foundation – Aspirin: https://www.preeclampsia.org/aspirin

Sarah is such a light to speak with and I think so much of what she says will help...To find Sarah on IG: @whenmybabydied

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NOTE: These are MY thoughts, experiences and opinions. By no means am I telling anyone what to do, what's right or wrong, diagnosing anyone or determining how to handle grief or trauma.

This is my real life, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone.

For more REAL TALK about baby loss and grief, hit subscribe to be notified when another video drops!

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Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

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Katherine + Brody's Mimi

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 22 Dec 2022 05:05:00 +0000

In this special Christmas episode, I talk with my mom, Brody's Mimi, to hear her perspective on Brody, his death, his life, grief, life after loss and being the mother of a Loss Mom. I will warn you, there are a lot of tears. But my mom shares her experiences, her perspective, her spirituality, her faith, her broken heart and all the things that come with being a Loss Gramma. She had tragedy strike as a kid when her dad died at an early age and just under 2 years ago, her own mother died. Her perspective from someone who has lived a lot of life and what life looks like for her now is incredible to listen to...

For those that wish to reach out to her and connect as a Loss Gramma, you can find her on Instagram @kycakra

I hope this helps for anyone that has someone to talk to that understands, and even for those who don't understand what this is like for everyone involved.

As always, please remember that this is MY experience, my life that I choose to share with you. You might not resonate with all things that are said. Nothing is meant to treat, diagnose, or offend anyone. Please use your own judgement about your own grief.

My wish is that this could help someone know that they aren't alone and potentially provide some insight you didn't know you needed.

Merry Christmas to all

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Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

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Melissa + Lachlan

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 15 Dec 2022 05:05:00 +0000

Melissa and I talk about her beautiful son Lachlan who died and was stillborn in 2016. Since then Melissa has become a Pregnancy and Infant Loss Coach, helping others navigate their new world after the late term death of their baby. Melissa works 1:1 and in groups and will be hosting her first in person retreat next year. She is open, honest, and real about her experiences. Her honesty and passion for helping others is so inspiring, you'll want to listen to every word she says...

We talk about:

*Life after baby death and stillbirth

*Medical Care in Canada

*Care after the death of our babies

*Living life with grief

*Being outspoken about our loss

*Helping others during their time of need

*Her coaching

*The beauty in seeing people work through the pain on their way to healing

And so much more!...

To find Melissa, check out these links: @healingloading & @boysin2places

The help centre: PILSC.org

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NOTE: These are MY thoughts, experiences and opinions. By no means am I telling anyone what to do, what's right or wrong, or how to handle grief or trauma.

This is my real life, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone.

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Instagram https: @thekatherinelazar

Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

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Crystal + Sienna

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 8 Dec 2022 05:05:00 +0000

Crystal’s daughter, Sienna Grace, was born just two days before my son, Brody. We connected through shared passion around advocacy for better medical and bereavement care. In this episode, we chat about Sienna’s shocking death during delivery after a healthy pregnancy, and how Crystal and her husband navigate life after loss. Crystal shares the long, painful journey of infertility that finally brought Sienna Grace into their life and how this precious baby girl continues to make an impact.

We dive into talking about personality traits, signs from our babies, setting boundaries, and even our faith in the midst of tragedy. Crystal also shares about the nonprofit organization, Weighted Angels, which helped bring her hope as she left the hospital without her baby. She is now a board member and serves as Secretary and Head of Volunteers for the organization in Virginia.

Crystal also discusses how people have shown support following her daughter’s death and how others can learn to show love to a loss mama too.

For more information about Weighted Angels, please visit weightedangels.com.

You can connect with Crystal on Instagram at @hope_enduring

NOTE: These are MY thoughts, experiences and opinions. By no means am I telling anyone what to do, what's right or wrong, or how to handle grief or trauma.

This is my real life, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone.

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Instagram https: @thekatherinelazar

Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

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Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

NOTE: These are MY thoughts, experiences and opinions. By no means am I telling anyone what to do, what's right or wrong, or how to handle grief or trauma, or diagnose anyone.

This is my real life, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone.

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Instagram https: @thekatherinelazar

Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

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Faryl + Daphne

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 1 Dec 2022 05:05:00 +0000

Faryl and I discuss her beautiful baby, Daphne, and how she has taken on the role of stillbirth, baby loss, and infant death photographer for families in hospitals. **WARNING: Talk about how a stillborn physically looks and what happens to them.**

We discuss how this affects her grief, her healing, and her recovery from the trauma of losing Daphne. I know her personally here in Atlanta and she has helped me so much. This episode really gets me. It's such a sensitive subject when it comes to our baby's photos. Proceed with caution when you listen...

What we talk about:

*what stillborns physically look like

*her trauma of giving birth at home

*photographing bereaved families

*editing stillborn photos

*turning your pain into purpose

*absolutely insanely mean doctors

and so much more...

To follow Faryl, go to her IG at @faryl_cat

And her website: www.farylann.com/giving-back

NOTE: These are MY thoughts, experiences and opinions. By no means am I telling anyone what to do, what's right or wrong, or how to handle grief or trauma.

This is my real life, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone.

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Instagram: @thekatherinelazar

Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

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Katherine: Holiday Special

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 24 Nov 2022 06:00:00 +0000

Hey it's me, Katherine, and it's just me LOL. I'm flying solo on this special edition. Since the episode drops on Thanksgiving, I wanted to dedicate this one to talking about the holiday and how we can navigate it. I've spend A LOT of time over the past 10 months researching grief, reading, educating myself, talking to professionals, loss moms, non-loss moms, grievers, etc and wanted to share the things that I've learned and/or seen.

The truth is, the holidays are SO freakin hard after your baby dies. And there is no right or wrong way to navigate this. So I discuss ways to honor our babies, tips on how to address family members, ways of coping during holiday events, things we should expect, how to approach certain situations, being grateful or not and mainly, how to survive and get through the holidays.

I get a little preachy at the end there but I get fired up LOL...I hope this helps you and I hope that you have even for just one moment, a Happy Thanksgiving.

Shop my store for my sweatshirt: https://at-a-total-loss.myshopify.com/

NOTE: These are MY thoughts, experiences and opinions. By no means am I telling anyone what to do, what's right or wrong, diagnosing or treating anyone.

This is my real life, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone.

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Instagram https: @thekatherinelazar

Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

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Local to Atlanta:

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Follow me on Social Media:

Instagram and Facebook: @thekatherinelazar

Youtube: TheKatherineLazar

Mim + Lenny + Bhai

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 17 Nov 2022 06:00:00 +0000

In this episode, I chat with Mim in the UK. Her two son's died within the last year, Lenny at 40 weeks and Bhai at 18 weeks. She, along with her husband, Roy, are cycling the length of New Zealand and making an adventure film to simultaneously raise awareness for baby loss and raising funds to support their new charity "Lenny’s Legacy."

Mim has a wicked sense of humor and her love for her boys radiates through the microphone. She has a background in research and has done A LOT herself trying to find answers and get down to the facts about preventable stillbirth. Mim comes packed with knowledge supported by the numbers and is on a mission to help get people to understand what this like and for her babies, and all of ours, to be remembered...

We talk about A LOT in this episode!

For more info from the UK on stillbirth and pregnancy loss, go to @Tommys

To follow their journey @lennyslegacy

NOTE: These are MY thoughts, experiences and opinions. By no means am I telling anyone what to do, what's right or wrong, or how to handle grief or trauma.

This is my real life, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone.

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Instagram https: @thekatherinelazar

Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

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Heather + Laura Caroline

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 10 Nov 2022 06:00:00 +0000

Heather and I were introduced literally the day Brody died. Her daughter, Laura Caroline, was stillborn in September of 2007. My sister had remembered that a friend of hers had a best friend with a similar experience. Kristina contacted Heather and from there, Heather guided her on what needed to happen once we got to the hospital. Her information was vital in our experience delivering and saying goodbye to Brody. Heather also took the time to speak with me during the first days after loss, and we finally met just a couple weeks ago. I'm so thankful for her transparency and her openness to talk about her story.

I love hearing the perspective of those who are far from loss. Heather is 15 years out and the experiences she's had over the course of those years helps us who are new at this so much. She gives a message of hope, inspiration, love, and support. Listen to her discuss how she got to the point of accepting grief and love at the same time, her relationship with her husband, her friendships and what's next after 15 years of grieving her only daughter.

NOTE: These are MY thoughts, experiences and opinions. By no means am I telling anyone what to do, what's right or wrong, or how to handle grief or trauma.

This is my real life, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone.

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Instagram https: @thekatherinelazar

Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

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Jennica + Hugo

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 3 Nov 2022 05:00:00 +0000

My dear friend Jennica and I met up in Atlanta to discuss her beautiful son Hugo and life after loss. We met through Dr Harvey Kliman who connected us after giving us the rundown on our boys' small placentas. Her perspective and insight is so interesting to me and we get through only a fraction of what we want to talk about in just an hour.

Here's what we discuss:

*Fake loss moms

*Social Media detox

*Who we were before loss

*People pleasing

*Keeping our sense of humor

*Our relationships with our husbands

*Her intuition of a spirit baby coming to her

*Signs from spirits and from our babies

*Past traumas and experiences influencing our grief

*Empowered Pregnancy

*Decisions made after birth

*How our babies looked after stillbirth

*And all the s**t that comes with death of our babies and SO much more...

To contact Jennica, (she's not on social media) email her at jennica.hill11@gmail.com...She'd love to hear from you :)

Follow me on IG, FB and Youtube at @thekatherinelazar

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NOTE: These are MY thoughts, experiences and opinions. By no means am I telling anyone what to do, what's right or wrong, or how to handle grief or trauma.

This is my real life, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone.

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To contact me, follow me on Instagram or Facebook at @thekatherinelazar or email me at thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Heather + Miles

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 27 Oct 2022 05:00:00 +0000

Heather joins Katherine to chat about her beautiful boy, Miles, who died and was stillborn in April of 2019. We discuss literally EVERYTHING in this episode. Heather is so much fun to talk with and her knowledge about wellness and grief is vital to our journeys after loss. We discuss the lack of care during labor and delivery, trauma on top of trauma on top of trauma, triggers, different types of therapies, and so much more. Heather is honest and transparent in her delivery and her message of how to recover from deep traumas is something everyone should listen to.

Buckle up because we go IN! :)

Find Heather on IG at @wellnessandgrief

SANDS in the UK https://www.sands.org.uk

NOTE: These are MY thoughts, experiences and opinions. By no means am I telling anyone what to do, what's right or wrong, or how to handle grief or trauma.

This is my real life, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone.

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To contact me, follow me on Instagram or Facebook at @thekatherinelazar or email me at thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Bliss + Harrison

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 20 Oct 2022 18:48:24 +0000

Bliss sits down with Katherine in Atlanta to chat about her beautiful son Harrison, stillborn on February 12, 2013. Her insight almost a decade from his death is vital to those who are just starting this life after loss. We discuss dreams throughout pregnancy, the emotions that still come up 10 years later, seeing the beauty in the sadness, trying to be strong all the time, forgiving ourselves, guilt guilt guilt, and how grief folds itself into your life over the years without ruling everything we do.

This episode is profoundly helpful if you're feeling like this pain will never stop. Bliss's insight on it has helped others in their journey of staying hopeful in the midst of so much darkness after loss.

Follow me on IG @thekatherinelazar if you have questions about this episode.

Ana + Owen

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 13 Oct 2022 05:00:00 +0000

Ana Vick's son Owen was stillborn on October 3, 2015. Since then, she has set her sites on advocacy, prevention, education, and awareness.

Ana is known as Still My Son on social media where she finds support and inspiration to continue pushing for change in memory of all babies gone too soon. Although she would much rather have her son in her arms, she proudly parents Owen through her activism and role as Co-Director of Communications of PUSH for Empowered Pregnancy (a stillbirth prevention non-profit she helped found with other bereaved families in 2021). As part of the Count the Kicks Influencer Advisory Board she leads targeted efforts to outreach to Latinx/Spanish speaking communities because every parent deserves to know how to protect their baby through fetal movement education. She is also a Measure the Placenta advocate pushing for this measurement (known as EPV) to become a standard of prenatal care to save vulnerable babies with small placentas from stillbirth. In addition, Ana is helping to spread “Womb Wisdom” through her new educational platform, Sacred Birth Circle, where she interviews maternal health experts & birthing parents to help families be better informed for their pregnancy and birth journeys.

Find Ana on IG at @stillmyson

Also here are some links-

Join us as a Changemaker: www.pushpregnancy.org/contact

Join the Big PUSH to end preventable stillbirth on 10/15:

thebigpushmarch.org

tinyurl.com/bigpushtees

Learn about the Rainbow Clinic & virtual PAL training for your provider:

pushpregnancy.org/rainbow-clinic

Create a memorial page to help fund year two:

tinyurl.com/RainbowClinic2022

Learn about fetal movement & proper kick counting (plus get the free APP): countthekicks.org

Amanda + Juniper

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 6 Oct 2022 16:58:26 +0000

This is truly one of the most honest, transparent, and open conversations I've had on this podcast. Amanda's sweet Juniper died and was stillborn on August 9, 2018. After her death, Amanda started to get answers as to what happened. It was found that Junie had a small placenta, and it was from this realization that Amanda became an advocate for stopping preventable stillbirths through measuring the placenta. Amanda's signature dark humor makes her such a light and someone that is the true meaning of grieving how YOU want to grieve and never apologizing for it. Her honest and raw approach to mothering her two living babies while also mothering Junie, gives hope that we can move forward with our precious babies always in mind. We laugh in this episode, a lot LOL. Which is OK to do! We discuss dark humor, placenta measuring, trusting professionals, the rude shit people do, baby daddy, the least worst things people should do, and so much more. Buckle up, this is what it sounds like to be a loss momma.

For info on measuring the placenta, go to MeasurethePlacenta.org

Follow Amanda on IG at @OrangeAFMama

Also, find the Small Placenta Stillbirth Group on Facebook

For more REAL TALK about pregnancy loss, stillbirth and grief, hit follow!

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Facebook: @thekatherinelazar

Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Katherine's Husband Michael

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 29 Sep 2022 11:30:31 +0000

In this Episode, Katherine's husband, Michael, talks about his experiences before and after the death of their son. He openly talks about the pregnancy, the day they were told Brody was gone, the delivery, being Brody's father, the days after and what it's like as the partner to a Loss Mom. This open and real conversation is very special. Many times the partner of the Loss Parent gets overlooked. But their feelings and perspective are valid, as they grieve just as much as Loss Moms do. This episode is a peak into what the horrific experience with stillbirth is like and an example of how you can make it to the other side together.

Find Katherine on IG at @thekatherinelazar

And Michael on IG at @lazar.michael

Bree + Rainey

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 22 Sep 2022 05:00:00 +0000

Bree is the owner of Loved Momma Fitness, a CrossFit coach and also holds a Bachelor’s degree in Psychology. Her beautiful daughter, Rainey, was born still in April of 2021. Before that, she worked with the pre and postnatal population of women for almost three years. Since the death of her daughter, Bree has begun working with loss mothers who have experienced tragic pregnancy or infant loss and recently launched her first return to exercise program, the Recovery After Loss Program. The program is completely trigger free, is six months long and walks with mothers through both their physical and emotional healing.

Katherine, also a fitness professional shares her insight as to her experiences getting back into workouts, her relationship with her body and fitness, and what it means to have a safe space to go to after baby loss.

You can find Katherine on Instagram and Facebook at @thekatherinelazar

You can follow Bree on her instagram: @loved_momma_fitness

To download her program, go to www.lovedmommafitness.com

Use promo code ATL10 for 10% your program!

Amy + Lauren

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 15 Sep 2022 05:00:00 +0000

Amy is a certified life and grief coach. After losing beautiful Lauren at 39.5 weeks and River at 14 weeks, she combined her own experiences with stillbirth, weeks, miscarriage and pregnancy after loss with powerful mindset tools to help moms find themselves again after baby loss. This conversation is raw and real covering all emotions that grief entails. Her message of how we're all so different yet so similar in grief, how we should grieve how we need to, and that there is hope and light waiting for us when we are ready, is an intensely important message for all.

Amy has a podcast to help other Loss Moms and here are her links:

Links: smoothstonescoaching.com

Podcast: Smooth Stones

Instagram: @amy.smoothstonescoaching

Facebook: Smooth Stones Coaching

Moria + Noah

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 8 Sep 2022 05:00:00 +0000

Moria's beautiful baby, Noah, was born still March 9, 2021. Moria radiates energy, hope and positivity in her experiences after loss. Her ministry, Mother of Wilde, creates beautiful prints of babies lost and her relationship with the Lord is a huge part of her journey.

We talk about hope vs hopeless, digging yourself out of suffering, God's calling for us, being a light, and most importantly our beautiful boys and what they've taught us.

This episode speaks to those who are in need of light, those who question their relationship with their faith, those wanting inspiration on how to honor their babies, and also, anyone who just needs to hear beautiful words from a Loss Mom herself.

Follow Moria on Instagram: @motherofwilde

Her website: https://www.motherofwilde.com/

Katherine's Sister Kristina

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 1 Sep 2022 05:00:00 +0000

In this episode, Katherine talks with her sister Kristina. They discuss the viewpoint and perspective of the support person of a Loss Parent. Trying to help a Loss Mom after the death of their baby doesn't come with an instruction manual, yet Kristina did a good job of navigating this horrible tragedy to support her sister. She describes where she got her direction from, what it took to stay close, how she managed to keep showing up and all the things that she did to never give up on Katherine. This is an insightful perspective for anyone looking for direction on how to help a Loss Mom or parent. Because, helping the person closest to the parents suffering will directly help the Loss Mom.

If you'd like to reach out to Kristina, find her Instagram here: @kristinaafitz

Erica + Verity

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 25 Aug 2022 09:00:00 +0000

Erica talks about her beautiful daughter, Verity, who died just 13 days after her birth. She opens up about what happened to her and what happened next after her preventable death. We talk about survival mode, intention vs impact, bills bills bills, trauma response, treatment from healthcare professionals, triggers, and so much more. Her wicked personality and her desire to help others is awesome to listen to. Verity is definitely so proud of her momma!

Things mentioned in this episode:

Erica's Instagram Profile: @travelingwithgrief

Book: Bittersweet by Susan Cain https://susancain.net/book/bittersweet/

Movie: Return to Zero

Helpful IG page: Real Life Midwife

Megan + Grace

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Wed, 17 Aug 2022 04:00:00 +0000

**Trigger Warning: baby in the background around 29:50 mark** Megan's daughter, Grace, died at 38 weeks and was born still on June 6, 2020. Megan opens up about her heartbreak and about how she coped after the death of her first child. She speaks about her switch in mindset, and how she actively tried to reposition her outlook to a more positive one while choosing better ways of handling grief and sadness. She also discusses her relationship with fitness and how it changed after Grace.

You can follow or message Megan on her Instagram @meganbutler28

Domenique + TJ

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Wed, 10 Aug 2022 04:00:00 +0000

Domenique is a big voice in the Stillbirth and Baby Loss community. She has been an inspiration to so many as she openly speaks about her experiences after her son TJ was born still in May 29, 2017. Domenique talks about finally getting answers to what happened to him as well as her unapologetic way of grieving. She is also a champion for change, teaming up with several organizations to help prevent stillbirth from happening. Her insight is knowledgeable, insightful, inspirational and compassionate. This is one episode you do not want to miss!

Domenique mentions several helpful links and contact information throughout the Episode:

How to get in touch with Domenique: @stillbirthmamafightingforlight

Push for Empowered Pregnancy: @pushpregnancy

Still Counts Campaign: @stillcountsorg

Count the Kicks: @countthekicksus

PushPregnancy.com

Dr Harvey Kliman- Placenta specialist at Yale University

And as always, find me on Instagram: @thekatherinelazar

Sarah + Brody

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Thu, 4 Aug 2022 20:00:00 +0000

This episode is such a rollercoaster of emotions. We laugh hard, we cry too. Sarah's Brody was born still October 12, 2019. Sarah talks about navigating the sadness after death as well as how she handled Pregnancy after loss. She's also a big fan of advocating for yourself when it comes to your medical care. For information on the Shine for Autumn Act, go here: https://www.congress.gov/bill/117th-congress/house-bill/5487 You can also reach out to Sarah @sarah_emmert. She is the ring leader here in Atlanta, and she loves to connect with Loss Moms everywhere!

Kelsey+Patrick

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Sat, 23 Jul 2022 00:00:00 +0000

Kelsey's first born son Patrick was stillborn May 10, 2019. We discuss genetic blood disorders that cause clots and the medication that is needed to maintain. Kelsey speaks beautifully about how to separate the sadness and the happiness in the loss of her baby. She expresses that we are the biggest advocates for our children and how losing them is now part of our lives.

Kelsey loves to hear from Loss Moms. She can be followed on instagram here: https://www.instagram.com/kelsey.heslin/

Introduction

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Sat, 23 Jul 2022 00:00:00 +0000

When Katherine's son Brody died, her world shattered. She had no idea what to do with this level of grief. Katherine decided that she needed help surviving while still honoring her son so she reached out to other Loss Moms to try to understand what was happening. Here she found support, motivation, inspiration, hope and even some laughs. She thought, hell, if these conversations helped her so much, maybe they could help others. So she documented conversations with Loss Moms. Here, she explains what to expect on the At a Total Loss Podcast...

Katherine would love to hear your story. Go to www.katherinelazar.com to submit a request

Liz+Harrison

thekatherinelazar@gmail.com (Katherine Lazar) — Sat, 23 Jul 2022 00:00:00 +0000

Liz's first son, Harrison, was born still on October 20, 2021. Liz talks about the changes she's making in her workplace to receive recognition for bereavement and stillbirth rather than if she had a living child. She does things with a senes of humor and strong outlook on how to handle grief and who she is now. Follow Liz and bother her with questions! Go to her instagram: @lizmeyers19